I miss my show so fucking much. Like, it's kind of ridiculous. I am sitting here, eyes tearing up just thinking about it. I want Sam and Dean and Baby and stupid Castiel and just...everything back. Hiatus really is hell ='(

( Crap no one wants to read... )

Still very sick. I'm considering going to the doctor but I keep putting it off. I don't want to move from the bed long enough to actually get to the office. Taking care of 2 children while wanting to rip my own head off is proving challenging. Can't wait until I start feeling better.

I dreamed about my ex last night. Why? I don't understand why it's ( Read more... )

I am dying, like I'm pretty sure I have caught the plague. So, so ridiculously sick. My throat/sinuses/head/ears are just one collective ball of misery. My voice is completely gone. I am currently existing on cough drops and herbal tea. So not fun. Going to crawl back under my covers now and sleep.

Because nobody wants to read this crap, but I need to get it out...( Real Life Stuff...a lot of whining really... )

I fell down my stairs this morning, probably because I was half asleep but mostly because I am the world's biggest clutz. It really wasn't that bad of a fall, but I landed right on my tailbone, which is really really bad considering I broke it last year. I have no idea if I re-broke it or what, but it is killing me. I can't sit or lay down without ( Read more... )

So, I used to write all the time. I've been making up stories in my head since I was five years old and scribbling them everywhere. My closet walls, the backs of homework assignments, napkins, the inside of cigarette packs...whatever I could find. I've had the dream of being a published writer since forever. For some reason I lost my mojo about 3 ( Read more... )

Watching spn con videos all morning and crying because I want to go to one so bad and I know I'm never going to be able to. It would be such an amazing experience to be with so many other fans and to actually be able to see, in person, the actors who have impacted my life so much. It's just so upsetting. Jared and Jensen ruin my life.

I'm so fucking frustrated. First, my email gets hacked last week. Now, over 70 dollars worth of fradulent charges show up on my bank statement this morning. I feel like screaming. How the hell does this happen?! I don't buy stuff online, don't go to weird porn sites, and I'm always super careful about protecting my info. Why why why does this ( Read more... )

Finally got my laptop back from being repaired! Omf I am so excited! I felt absolutely lost without it lol, which I know is totally lame but oh well.

I have been craving cigarettes  so. fucking. bad. Which makes no sense, because I haven't smoked sice Feb. of 2009, but christ I would kill to be able to light one up. I feel selfish and endlessly ( Read more... )