DBSK Fic: Half of The Moon (17/17)
Title: Half Of The Moon
Main pairing: Changmin x Junsu
Other pairings: Yunho x Jaejoong; Yoochun x Yoohwan; Kangin x Leeteuk;
Genre: Romance/Angst
Rating: NC-17 in this chapter, NC-17 overall
Warnings: THIS FIC CONTAINS LOTS OF ABUSE AT THE BEGINNING, INCLUDING DISTURBING RAPE SCENE, PHYSICAL AND MENTAL ABUSE WHICH MIGHT BE DISTURBING FOR SOME. It also contains very submissive Junsu and INCEST. You've been warned.
Disclaimer: I do not own DBSK/JYJ/Super Junior
Summary: Werewolf!Verse. Junsu was a submissive werewolf in his pack. He was a human once until a pack of rogue werewolves killed his entire family and made him a werewolf. There was nothing more he wanted more than to be dead. Unfortunately fate seemed to have different ideas.
Credit: Thank you for mearii87at Live Journal who has allowed me to use some of her ideas from this gorgeous 'Clair De Lune' universe she has created. Anyone who hasn't read her fics, you really should. They're amazing.
Beta-Ed by harunotenshi, thank you very much! ^^
This universe I've borrowed has been inspired by Patricia Briggs.
Banner by be_ddelusionall, thank you for the pretty banner! :D
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Half of the Moon
Chapter Seventeen
By: Sharl/zielddhy
Changmin was so patient.
Junsu had thought that as soon as they stepped into the beach house, Changmin would slam him on the wall and they would make love right there. But no, not the first night, not even the second nor third night. They didn’t share anything except chaste and innocent kisses, keeping the touches to what they were already familiar with.
He wasn’t a fool. He knew that Changmin was letting him set the pace; to make sure that Junsu was truly ready. And so, on the fourth night, he tried to muster his courage. Junsu approached his mate as Changmin had just finished showering. His mate’s curly hair was still wet, framing his face and giving it a youthful look. As he got closer, Junsu could smell the lemon and musk Changmin used as his shampoo and body wash, mixing with a smell that was just so Changmin.
“Hey,” Junsu said as he sat down.
Changmin’s smile was beautiful. “Hey,” he reached around for Junsu and nudged him closer. He then frowned seeing the submissive’s troubled look. “What’s wrong?”
Junsu bit his lip, a habit whenever he was unsure and looked down. Long fingers -Changmin’s- that he was now familiar with reached up and touched his face. He looked up to see Changmin was staring at him, worried and concerned written in his eyes. Junsu couldn’t take seeing Changmin like that, so he did the first thing that came to his mind. He leaned in and kissed his mate.
After a moment of touching, a recent habit, they both parted their lips. They drew apart and Junsu felt kisses on his nose and cheeks. He wanted Changmin, he knew that. But somehow the words stuck in his throat and just refused to be said. What’s wrong with you, he chided himself, surely you can let the past go. You know he loves you.
But Changmin has never seen you with your clothes off. He has never seen you with all those horrible scars on your back, another part of him whispered.
Unconsciously Junsu let out a strangled cry.
Changmin immediately grew alarmed. “Junsu what is it? Are you alright? Am I hurting you?”
Junsu shook his head. “No, of course not, it’s just… Changmin-“ He looked at his mate, reading the concern and the panic bubbling up inside Changmin that seeped into their mate bond. His wolf growled low, trying to reassure Junsu that Changmin would never ever leave them, no matter what Junsu maybe thinking right now. And so Junsu forced himself to speak. “I want you, I really want you. But Changmin, I’m scared.” Junsu wanted to speak more, to tell Changmin all of the turmoil inside him, all the insecurities, but he found that he couldn’t.
The next thing he knew was the feeling of Changmin’s arms around him. Changmin didn’t say anything, merely hugging Junsu’s shaking body and placing butterfly kisses everywhere. He waited until the shaking had receded, and even after that he remained quiet, only flooding their bond with love and comfort. Junsu’s wolf relished in the feeling.
Junsu then visibly swallowed. He gripped Changmin’s sleeve and tried to snuggle closer, placing his head on the other’s shoulder. He turned slightly around, looking at the hard-lined jaw of his mate and realized one thing: Changmin was really trying hard to control his desire. And Junsu wasn’t helping at all, he only made their situation worse. Changmin deserved better, he had been so patient and loving and caring and everything Junsu hoped to be in a mate.
What the hell Junsu could want for more anyway? And what is it that he was waiting for?
He wanted Changmin, and Changmin wanted him. It was just that simple.
And then Changmin smiled, as if he could understand what Junsu was thinking. He playfully tapped Junsu’s head, his eyes shone with mirth. “Stupid. Don’t think too much Su. I want this just as much as you do. I’ve already gone through death and more to prove that I love you,” he added playfully, “Surely that is enough?”
Changmin let out a short laugh and Junsu couldn’t help but smile with him. He was right. Changmin was right. Why did he allow those ugly thoughts came and doubted Changmin’s love for him? No matter what he looked like, no matter what scar his body bore, Changmin would always love him. Just like how he would always love Changmin.
He could feel the tension leaving his body. And suddenly before Junsu realized what was happening, he was kissing Changmin again. But this time the kiss was not innocent. The Second immediately reacted. He hugged Junsu’s body tighter, almost making the man meltmelt into him. Their lips moved in fervor.
Junsu didn’t know what was happening. His brain was all mush already thanks to the feeling of Changmin all around him, and now this? Every time he kissed Changmin it’s like he was floating somewhere warm and he didn’t want the feeling to end. He couldn’t think, he could only feel. Other than Changmin, everything else seemed to cease to exist.
His arousal came slithering out of nowhere and Junsu heard someone moan. A few seconds later he realized that it was him. Junsu was almost straddling his mate now, half kneeling and half sitting. He could sense Changmin’s own arousal came pouring into the bond and it affected him. Junsu’s skin began to grow hot. Everywhere Changmin touched left a trail of scorching heat. Unconsciously he wound his arms around Changmin and only then did their lips part.
Junsu could feel Changmin’s lips showering his face with butterfly kisses. And soft words were whispered in his ear. “Mate?”
The submissive smiled. “Mate. Now and forever. Until you grow bored of me.”
“Then you’re stuck with me forever, because I won’t ever ever be bored of you,” Changmin replied. Like everything else he said to Junsu so far, he spoke with so much adoration and love and commitment that never failed to make Junsu tear up a bit. It felt so good to be loved like this.
Changmin kissed him again. Their tongues tangled and dueled in what already became a familiar dance. Junsu wanted to touch Changmin so he slipped his fingers beneath his dominant’s shirt. Changmin’s skin felt so hot underneath his fingers and Junsu liked the feeling as his mate twitched every time he touched certain spots. Those were Changmin’s sensitive spots; Junsu had better memorize them because he wanted to run his tongue on them later.
Suddenly Changmin groaned. He must’ve caught Junsu’s thought because he said, “Can’t you do that now?”
Junsu blinked. And then he blushed. Changmin only laughed and kissed his lips slightly. “I’m just kidding. I’m not going anywhere so take your time to do that.”
“No,” Junsu surprised himself for answering, “I’d like to do that now please.”
Changmin’s eyes widened. “Really?”
Junsu nodded and instead of answering, he tugged on Changmin’s shirt. Soon the Second was half naked from waist up. Junsu marveled at his mate’s beautiful form. Changmin was lean and his muscles were well-defined, being a werewolf gave him that privilege. His skin was so smooth and as Junsu ran his fingers on them, he could feel Changmin shiver a bit. A desire began to swell inside of him and before he could stop himself, Junsu had moved.
He began with touching Changmin’s skin, his fingers ghosting over them. Just a mere touch already set Changmin’s desire and it poured over into their bond and Junsu saw as Changmin’s hands clenched into fists. The Second was obviously trying to control himself. Junsu tried to remember where the sensitive spots were, but somehow he couldn’t. So the submissive did the first thing came to his mind: he’d just try to find them again.
And when he finally found one, Changmin twitched and his breathing grew harsher. Junsu smiled, knowing it was him who made Changmin feel that. The spot was somewhere between Changmin’s mid-rib and his chest. Junsu ran his tongue there, tasting his mate’s skin for the first time and he relished in the feeling when Changmin moaned low in his throat.
He played with that spot, licking and occasionally biting. And then he trailed kisses alongside to find another one. And then another one. By the time he was done playing with the fifth spot, Changmin was a boneless mess underneath him.
“Junsu,” Changmin’s voice was tight, “Please stop, I don’t know if I can control myself anymore.” I want you, was the hidden message.
Junsu looked up to his mate. “Okay,” the answer easily rolled on his tongue.
He nearly laughed when he saw the shocked look on his mate’s face. “Why are you so surprised? I told you I want to mate now,” he said after kissing Changmin’s lips once more. He knew that he was pushing the limit here. Changmin had waited long enough, much more than Junsu wanted him to.
Are you sure you’re ready? Because I know I won’t be able to stop.
Junsu’s lips tightened. This was it, the point of no return. I only know I want this, whether I’m ready or not, let’s find out?
Changmin growled. Junsu watched as his mate’s eyes began to glow golden and he knew that Changmin had given up some of the control. He shivered a bit but he immediately pushed down the feeling before Changmin could catch up on it. What did he expect? Gentle sweet love making? This was a mating between werewolves and there’s nothing slow or gentle when it came to werewolves fucking; it was always harsh and fast.
The bedroom wall spun and Junsu found himself underneath Changmin. His mate was kissing him, harsh and needy. Hands roamed all over his skin. At the back of his mind Junsu was amazed how different it felt compared to when the members of his old pack touched him. It was disgusting and repulsive, while Changmin’s touch made his own skin tingle.
Junsu wanted more.
He moaned when Changmin bit his neck and sucked, leaving a deep red hickey that would stay there for few days. His cock began to strain painfully in his pants. The Second must’ve felt that because he then growled low. He pressed their erections together, letting Junsu realize how hard Changmin was and oh god it felt really big. Junsu has never seen nor touched Changmin’s cock before; Changmin was always the one who gave him blowjobs and now all coherent thoughts flew away from Junsu’s mind.
Changmin began to grind their erections, the friction felt so good and Junsu moaned. Deft fingers unbuttoned his pants. Out of reflex Junsu flinched and whimpered. And then the fingers stopped. Soft kisses were showered and Changmin’s voice whispered. “It’s okay, I’m here,” he said, “No one is going to hurt you.”
It was amazing how Changmin could still comfort Junsu despite the arousal and lust he felt. He must’ve had very good control on his wolf but then again Junsu wasn’t surprised. Changmin had succeeded controlling his desire for so long. He opened his eyes to see Changmin looking at him worriedly, his eyes still holding a hint of gold in them.
Junsu nodded, letting Changmin know that he was okay. But Changmin was still unsure and his fingers still didn’t resume their earlier ministrations. So Junsu pushed down his own pants, letting his own erection free to feel the cool night air. “I’m fine,” he whispered.
He kissed Changmin again and bit on one of his sensitive spots, trying to get Changmin back in the mood. It didn’t take long. Changmin pressed down on him again, rubbing his clothed erection to Junsu’s cock and Junsu cried out in pleasure. It felt amazing. Tiny bolts of pleasure rolled throughout his body like a smooth wave, electrifying his every nerve. He wound his arms around Changmin’s naked back. His own control began to fade.
His own eyes must’ve also glowed gold. It was as if he had no control over his own body.
Stubborn ugly memories came slithering once again but somehow, somehow they were overpowered by the feeling of Changmin. His mate smelled so good, his scent was intoxicating. They shared harsh kisses and deep bites and Junsu was sure his neck will be covered in love marks when morning came. His fingers moved on their own until they reached Changmin’s pants. He touched Changmin’s clothed erection and his mate moaned, almost pushing into Junsu’s fingers.
Changmin tugged on Junsu’s shirt, wanting it to come off. Junsu hesitated for a while. His body especially his back was covered in ugly scars, even he himself hated it. But then Changmin growled, as if challenging Junsu if he dared to doubt Changmin’s love again.
So Junsu shook off the memories and allowed Changmin to take the shirt off. Junsu found himself being turned and he felt loving kisses all over his back. We’ll get them removed next week, a few laser shots and they will disappear, Changmin said into their bond. Junsu knew then that his mate also hated the scars as much as he did.
They will still leave marks. He wasn’t only talking about the scars.
We will bury them so deep, they won’t have a chance to resurface. And even if they do, I will be here with you. Changmin spoke with such determination Junsu couldn’t help but smile. He felt safe with Changmin. The memories would still come back but like Changmin said, he would be there with Junsu.
Junsu cried out when fingers touched his erection again and just like that, everything else ceased to exist. There was only Changmin and sparks of pleasure and desire, a deep desire that Junsu could only translate as he wanted Changmin in him.
Pre-cum had started to pearl on the tip of his cock. With shaking fingers Junsu unbuttoned his mate’s pants, freeing The Second’s erection. Changmin moaned. He lifted his hips for a bit, giving Junsu a chance to tug Changmin’s pants down and leave them both naked.
Changmin maneuvered them so that Junsu was sitting on his lap. Junsu moaned in their kisses as he felt fingers touching him down there, not yet pushing in but only circling his hole, teasing him. He could hear himself panting harshly.
Cold fingers trailed over his skin and few seconds later Junsu realized that it was lube. When had Changmin moved? Junsu was sure he hadn’t seen lube anywhere near their bed. But then one finger pushed in and all coherent thoughts flew out of his barely functioning brain. The finger began to move in and out and it felt so different, so good to finally be touched inside by his mate. Kisses and bites still trailed all over his neck, leaving him panting and wanting for more.
Then one finger became two. Junsu could feel them twisting and spreading his hole, making sure that he was loose enough.
And then he felt it. The single touch sent fire racing through his veins and he cried out in pure pleasure. It felt so amazing. And as if Changmin knew what Junsu was thinking, he began to touch that particular spot inside him again and again until Junsu’s cock was twitching and leaking.
The room spun again and Junsu found himself lying on his back. Changmin’s fingers (there were three of them inside him now) were still moving inside him, leaving the submissive in a whimpering, incoherent mess. He felt butterfly kisses trailed down his chest and stomach until finally it reached his cock.
Junsu moaned as Changmin engulfed him in one go, his fingers never stopped moving. His orgasm came out of nowhere and it was all Junsu could do before he groaned and panted, “Changmin, stop please, I’m going to…” He resisted the urge to bite his lip because Changmin always told him that he wanted to hear Junsu.
He heard Changmin’s voice in his mushy brain. It’s okay, you can let go.
But you’re not even- Junsu couldn’t continue his thought. His orgasm was so close and his fingers were everywhere, trying to find something solid to hold on to and finally he placed them on Changmin’s bent head. Fingers were still moving and with one last touch to his prostrate, Changmin deep-throated him. His orgasm came crashing into him and he shook as white spots burst beneath his eyelids.
Junsu panted and slumped on the bed. It was as if there was no single bone left in his body. He felt satiated, so satisfied and happy.
Warm, familiar lips covered his and Junsu moaned as he tasted himself on Changmin’s tongue. The slick muscle licked every curve and corner in his mouth, coaxing Junsu’s tongue to play and Junsu indulged his mate. He could feel his arousal coming back, slowly but surely. Fingers stroked his cock again and Junsu realized it wouldn’t take long before his cock became hard again. Although he already had his orgasm, something inside him still felt unsatisfied.
Instinctively Junsu knew what it was: his submissive consciousness demanded that he submit to his mate.
So out of intuition rather than anything else, Junsu tilted his head back and bared his neck. Changmin wasn’t stupid and Junsu knew that his mate immediately understood. He felt Changmin bite his shoulder and then his legs were lifted.
There was no time to panic when Junsu felt the head of Changmin’s cock press against his hole, because in what seemed like a flash, Changmin had pushed forward and buried himself inside Junsu in one swift thrust. Junsu cried out, mixed with pain and pleasure. He hadn’t been claimed, or fucked as his old Alpha would say, for so long and Changmin wasn’t exactly normal sized either. He was big, bigger than Junsu had thought earlier.
But thankfully Changmin understood and gave him a chance to adjust. Junsu whispered thanks in their mate bond, in which Changmin replied by kissing him to distract him from the pain. He just stayed there, letting and waiting for Junsu to decide when he could begin to move.
Junsu’s body decided that for him. His arousal hadn’t backed down and it felt good to finally finally have Changmin inside him like this. He tried to thrust up and felt Changmin slip inside deeper, just enough so that it touched his prostrate and it sent lightning bolts coursing inside him.
Changmin understood and began to move. Tiny, small movements at first until Junsu opened his eyes and looked into Changmin’s golden ones. Words had long left his brain and the only thing that came out from his mouth was breathless moans and whimpers. But his eyes conveyed them all. His inner consciousness as a werewolf kicked in and he wanted this mating now.
And it was as if Changmin’s desire melted as one into Junsu’s. The Second claimed his stake. He moved and fucked Junsu with fervor. Junsu cried out in pleasure, that was all he could do after all. His fingers wound themselves in his mate’s hair, bringing him down so that their lips could meet in a harsh kiss.
His prostrate kept being slammed into again and again. He could hear Changmin growl and moan in pleasure. He shifted his knees a bit, bringing Junsu’s legs around his waist and moved faster. Junsu very nearly sobbed. It felt so good and so amazing and so full.
Junsu could feel his cock brush and slide again and again onto Changmin’s muscled stomach. Changmin’s harsh panting near his ear lit tiny sparks in his body. His name was moaned over and over again but Junsu couldn’t respond, he could only moan and cry out and just feel.
It wasn’t long before Junsu found himself on the edge of his orgasm again. He tried to tell Changmin that he was close but somehow he was unsuccessful. However Changmin seemed to understand. Touch yourself for me Junsu, he heard Changmin say into their bond. With shaking fingers he slipped a hand between them and began to stroke. He tried to time it with Changmin’s thrusts but Changmin was going too fast for him to follow.
But it was enough for Junsu. In just five strokes, he was coming, white fluid burst from his cock and covered his fingers and stomach. He could feel his inner muscles clamp down on Changmin’s cock and with two more thrusts the Second groaned and emptied himself in Junsu.
Junsu felt Changmin slumped forward to him and usually he hated that. But this was Changmin and there was nothing hateful about Changmin. In fact, his mate’s weight felt comfortable on top of him like this. Like he was safe and sound, protected from everything in the world, which was exactly what Changmin wanted him to feel.
Suddenly Changmin said, “I love you.”
Junsu grinned. His heart always did that little flutter whenever he was near Changmin and now it was doing somersault. It felt like it would burst from too much happiness. And he knew Changmin also felt what he felt like because Changmin also doubled the love in their bond. “I love you too. Thank you for being my mate,” he whispered.
Changmin hovered on top of Junsu, letting Junsu know what Changmin felt, how happy he was and how grateful he was to have Junsu as a mate. Junsu watched as his mate’s eyes shone with happiness. “Thank you for allowing me to,” Changmin whispered.
And everything felt so complete. Junsu felt like he wanted to die from too much happiness. Changmin smiled and then hugged him again. Don’t die, because I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
Junsu couldn’t help but cry. Every bad memory, every bad experience, somehow, everything seemed worth it. But at the same time they felt so far away, as if Changmin had them buried and locked somewhere where they couldn’t touch Junsu again. Changmin held his promises. His mate had succeeded.
His beloved, dearly loved mate.
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Junsu huffed, seeing the pack’s house in front of him. It felt strangely homey. The house was now a comforting sight, a place he can finally call home. But although he could feel the happiness of being home again, it paled in comparison to what Changmin made him feel. Junsu couldn’t exactly explain what Changmin meant to him, except that he was everything.
However, a million thoughts were running in his mind. The pack members would tease him, that’s for sure, but would Changmin’s rank be affected with their mating? A quick check in the pack’s bond a few days ago indicated that nothing changed, but they wouldn’t know for sure until they met each of the pack members.
Was the pack ready for any of those changes? What would Changmin say?
A warm hand covered his and Junsu turned to see his mate standing next to him. Then suddenly everything seemed twice as better. Changmin didn’t have to speak and Junsu understood. It would be alright. Junsu was everything to Changmin. The taller man smiled and Junsu couldn’t help but smile back.
He stepped through the front porch, opened the door wide and announced in loud voice, “We’re back.”
Welcome home.
-The End-
Author’s Note: IT’S DONE!!!! Half of The Moon is finally done after six months 8DDD
I never thought this story will receive so much love from readers. I've met new wonderful friends because of this fic and it's everything I can hope for and more. So thank you so much for all the lovely comments and supports, each one has made my day a better one.
Special thanks to harunotenshi, be_ddelusionall, and mearii87. BIG HUGS FOR YOU GUYS!!!
There will be a sequel for this story, but it will be focused on Siwon. Of course knowing me, there will be bits and pieces of MinSu scattered everywhere but the main focus will be Siwon. I don't know when I can post it, I haven't even written the plot lol.
Anyway, thank you again for reading and following this story. Hopefully I will see you all in my new and/or ongoing fics. Silent readers, this is the last chapter, would be great if I can know what you guys think ^^
Chapter Sixteen: The Second Life
Chapter Fifteen: The Brink of Life and Death
Chapter Fourteen: The Curiosity
Chapter Thirteen: The Regained Trust
Chapter Twelve: The Second Memories
Chapter Eleven: The Calm Before The Storm
Chapter Ten: The Truth
Chapter Nine: The Losing Battle
Chapter Eight: The Memories
Chapter Seven: The First Step
Chapter Six: The Point of No Return
Chapter Five: The Defiance
Chapter Four: The First Hunt
Chapter Three: The Mate
Chapter Two: The New Pack
Chapter One: The Rescue
The Prologue
The Foreword
Main pairing: Changmin x Junsu
Other pairings: Yunho x Jaejoong; Yoochun x Yoohwan; Kangin x Leeteuk;
Genre: Romance/Angst
Rating: NC-17 in this chapter, NC-17 overall
Warnings: THIS FIC CONTAINS LOTS OF ABUSE AT THE BEGINNING, INCLUDING DISTURBING RAPE SCENE, PHYSICAL AND MENTAL ABUSE WHICH MIGHT BE DISTURBING FOR SOME. It also contains very submissive Junsu and INCEST. You've been warned.
Disclaimer: I do not own DBSK/JYJ/Super Junior
Summary: Werewolf!Verse. Junsu was a submissive werewolf in his pack. He was a human once until a pack of rogue werewolves killed his entire family and made him a werewolf. There was nothing more he wanted more than to be dead. Unfortunately fate seemed to have different ideas.
Credit: Thank you for mearii87at Live Journal who has allowed me to use some of her ideas from this gorgeous 'Clair De Lune' universe she has created. Anyone who hasn't read her fics, you really should. They're amazing.
Beta-Ed by harunotenshi, thank you very much! ^^
This universe I've borrowed has been inspired by Patricia Briggs.
Banner by be_ddelusionall, thank you for the pretty banner! :D
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Half of the Moon
Chapter Seventeen
By: Sharl/zielddhy
Changmin was so patient.
Junsu had thought that as soon as they stepped into the beach house, Changmin would slam him on the wall and they would make love right there. But no, not the first night, not even the second nor third night. They didn’t share anything except chaste and innocent kisses, keeping the touches to what they were already familiar with.
He wasn’t a fool. He knew that Changmin was letting him set the pace; to make sure that Junsu was truly ready. And so, on the fourth night, he tried to muster his courage. Junsu approached his mate as Changmin had just finished showering. His mate’s curly hair was still wet, framing his face and giving it a youthful look. As he got closer, Junsu could smell the lemon and musk Changmin used as his shampoo and body wash, mixing with a smell that was just so Changmin.
“Hey,” Junsu said as he sat down.
Changmin’s smile was beautiful. “Hey,” he reached around for Junsu and nudged him closer. He then frowned seeing the submissive’s troubled look. “What’s wrong?”
Junsu bit his lip, a habit whenever he was unsure and looked down. Long fingers -Changmin’s- that he was now familiar with reached up and touched his face. He looked up to see Changmin was staring at him, worried and concerned written in his eyes. Junsu couldn’t take seeing Changmin like that, so he did the first thing that came to his mind. He leaned in and kissed his mate.
After a moment of touching, a recent habit, they both parted their lips. They drew apart and Junsu felt kisses on his nose and cheeks. He wanted Changmin, he knew that. But somehow the words stuck in his throat and just refused to be said. What’s wrong with you, he chided himself, surely you can let the past go. You know he loves you.
But Changmin has never seen you with your clothes off. He has never seen you with all those horrible scars on your back, another part of him whispered.
Unconsciously Junsu let out a strangled cry.
Changmin immediately grew alarmed. “Junsu what is it? Are you alright? Am I hurting you?”
Junsu shook his head. “No, of course not, it’s just… Changmin-“ He looked at his mate, reading the concern and the panic bubbling up inside Changmin that seeped into their mate bond. His wolf growled low, trying to reassure Junsu that Changmin would never ever leave them, no matter what Junsu maybe thinking right now. And so Junsu forced himself to speak. “I want you, I really want you. But Changmin, I’m scared.” Junsu wanted to speak more, to tell Changmin all of the turmoil inside him, all the insecurities, but he found that he couldn’t.
The next thing he knew was the feeling of Changmin’s arms around him. Changmin didn’t say anything, merely hugging Junsu’s shaking body and placing butterfly kisses everywhere. He waited until the shaking had receded, and even after that he remained quiet, only flooding their bond with love and comfort. Junsu’s wolf relished in the feeling.
Junsu then visibly swallowed. He gripped Changmin’s sleeve and tried to snuggle closer, placing his head on the other’s shoulder. He turned slightly around, looking at the hard-lined jaw of his mate and realized one thing: Changmin was really trying hard to control his desire. And Junsu wasn’t helping at all, he only made their situation worse. Changmin deserved better, he had been so patient and loving and caring and everything Junsu hoped to be in a mate.
What the hell Junsu could want for more anyway? And what is it that he was waiting for?
He wanted Changmin, and Changmin wanted him. It was just that simple.
And then Changmin smiled, as if he could understand what Junsu was thinking. He playfully tapped Junsu’s head, his eyes shone with mirth. “Stupid. Don’t think too much Su. I want this just as much as you do. I’ve already gone through death and more to prove that I love you,” he added playfully, “Surely that is enough?”
Changmin let out a short laugh and Junsu couldn’t help but smile with him. He was right. Changmin was right. Why did he allow those ugly thoughts came and doubted Changmin’s love for him? No matter what he looked like, no matter what scar his body bore, Changmin would always love him. Just like how he would always love Changmin.
He could feel the tension leaving his body. And suddenly before Junsu realized what was happening, he was kissing Changmin again. But this time the kiss was not innocent. The Second immediately reacted. He hugged Junsu’s body tighter, almost making the man meltmelt into him. Their lips moved in fervor.
Junsu didn’t know what was happening. His brain was all mush already thanks to the feeling of Changmin all around him, and now this? Every time he kissed Changmin it’s like he was floating somewhere warm and he didn’t want the feeling to end. He couldn’t think, he could only feel. Other than Changmin, everything else seemed to cease to exist.
His arousal came slithering out of nowhere and Junsu heard someone moan. A few seconds later he realized that it was him. Junsu was almost straddling his mate now, half kneeling and half sitting. He could sense Changmin’s own arousal came pouring into the bond and it affected him. Junsu’s skin began to grow hot. Everywhere Changmin touched left a trail of scorching heat. Unconsciously he wound his arms around Changmin and only then did their lips part.
Junsu could feel Changmin’s lips showering his face with butterfly kisses. And soft words were whispered in his ear. “Mate?”
The submissive smiled. “Mate. Now and forever. Until you grow bored of me.”
“Then you’re stuck with me forever, because I won’t ever ever be bored of you,” Changmin replied. Like everything else he said to Junsu so far, he spoke with so much adoration and love and commitment that never failed to make Junsu tear up a bit. It felt so good to be loved like this.
Changmin kissed him again. Their tongues tangled and dueled in what already became a familiar dance. Junsu wanted to touch Changmin so he slipped his fingers beneath his dominant’s shirt. Changmin’s skin felt so hot underneath his fingers and Junsu liked the feeling as his mate twitched every time he touched certain spots. Those were Changmin’s sensitive spots; Junsu had better memorize them because he wanted to run his tongue on them later.
Suddenly Changmin groaned. He must’ve caught Junsu’s thought because he said, “Can’t you do that now?”
Junsu blinked. And then he blushed. Changmin only laughed and kissed his lips slightly. “I’m just kidding. I’m not going anywhere so take your time to do that.”
“No,” Junsu surprised himself for answering, “I’d like to do that now please.”
Changmin’s eyes widened. “Really?”
Junsu nodded and instead of answering, he tugged on Changmin’s shirt. Soon the Second was half naked from waist up. Junsu marveled at his mate’s beautiful form. Changmin was lean and his muscles were well-defined, being a werewolf gave him that privilege. His skin was so smooth and as Junsu ran his fingers on them, he could feel Changmin shiver a bit. A desire began to swell inside of him and before he could stop himself, Junsu had moved.
He began with touching Changmin’s skin, his fingers ghosting over them. Just a mere touch already set Changmin’s desire and it poured over into their bond and Junsu saw as Changmin’s hands clenched into fists. The Second was obviously trying to control himself. Junsu tried to remember where the sensitive spots were, but somehow he couldn’t. So the submissive did the first thing came to his mind: he’d just try to find them again.
And when he finally found one, Changmin twitched and his breathing grew harsher. Junsu smiled, knowing it was him who made Changmin feel that. The spot was somewhere between Changmin’s mid-rib and his chest. Junsu ran his tongue there, tasting his mate’s skin for the first time and he relished in the feeling when Changmin moaned low in his throat.
He played with that spot, licking and occasionally biting. And then he trailed kisses alongside to find another one. And then another one. By the time he was done playing with the fifth spot, Changmin was a boneless mess underneath him.
“Junsu,” Changmin’s voice was tight, “Please stop, I don’t know if I can control myself anymore.” I want you, was the hidden message.
Junsu looked up to his mate. “Okay,” the answer easily rolled on his tongue.
He nearly laughed when he saw the shocked look on his mate’s face. “Why are you so surprised? I told you I want to mate now,” he said after kissing Changmin’s lips once more. He knew that he was pushing the limit here. Changmin had waited long enough, much more than Junsu wanted him to.
Are you sure you’re ready? Because I know I won’t be able to stop.
Junsu’s lips tightened. This was it, the point of no return. I only know I want this, whether I’m ready or not, let’s find out?
Changmin growled. Junsu watched as his mate’s eyes began to glow golden and he knew that Changmin had given up some of the control. He shivered a bit but he immediately pushed down the feeling before Changmin could catch up on it. What did he expect? Gentle sweet love making? This was a mating between werewolves and there’s nothing slow or gentle when it came to werewolves fucking; it was always harsh and fast.
The bedroom wall spun and Junsu found himself underneath Changmin. His mate was kissing him, harsh and needy. Hands roamed all over his skin. At the back of his mind Junsu was amazed how different it felt compared to when the members of his old pack touched him. It was disgusting and repulsive, while Changmin’s touch made his own skin tingle.
Junsu wanted more.
He moaned when Changmin bit his neck and sucked, leaving a deep red hickey that would stay there for few days. His cock began to strain painfully in his pants. The Second must’ve felt that because he then growled low. He pressed their erections together, letting Junsu realize how hard Changmin was and oh god it felt really big. Junsu has never seen nor touched Changmin’s cock before; Changmin was always the one who gave him blowjobs and now all coherent thoughts flew away from Junsu’s mind.
Changmin began to grind their erections, the friction felt so good and Junsu moaned. Deft fingers unbuttoned his pants. Out of reflex Junsu flinched and whimpered. And then the fingers stopped. Soft kisses were showered and Changmin’s voice whispered. “It’s okay, I’m here,” he said, “No one is going to hurt you.”
It was amazing how Changmin could still comfort Junsu despite the arousal and lust he felt. He must’ve had very good control on his wolf but then again Junsu wasn’t surprised. Changmin had succeeded controlling his desire for so long. He opened his eyes to see Changmin looking at him worriedly, his eyes still holding a hint of gold in them.
Junsu nodded, letting Changmin know that he was okay. But Changmin was still unsure and his fingers still didn’t resume their earlier ministrations. So Junsu pushed down his own pants, letting his own erection free to feel the cool night air. “I’m fine,” he whispered.
He kissed Changmin again and bit on one of his sensitive spots, trying to get Changmin back in the mood. It didn’t take long. Changmin pressed down on him again, rubbing his clothed erection to Junsu’s cock and Junsu cried out in pleasure. It felt amazing. Tiny bolts of pleasure rolled throughout his body like a smooth wave, electrifying his every nerve. He wound his arms around Changmin’s naked back. His own control began to fade.
His own eyes must’ve also glowed gold. It was as if he had no control over his own body.
Stubborn ugly memories came slithering once again but somehow, somehow they were overpowered by the feeling of Changmin. His mate smelled so good, his scent was intoxicating. They shared harsh kisses and deep bites and Junsu was sure his neck will be covered in love marks when morning came. His fingers moved on their own until they reached Changmin’s pants. He touched Changmin’s clothed erection and his mate moaned, almost pushing into Junsu’s fingers.
Changmin tugged on Junsu’s shirt, wanting it to come off. Junsu hesitated for a while. His body especially his back was covered in ugly scars, even he himself hated it. But then Changmin growled, as if challenging Junsu if he dared to doubt Changmin’s love again.
So Junsu shook off the memories and allowed Changmin to take the shirt off. Junsu found himself being turned and he felt loving kisses all over his back. We’ll get them removed next week, a few laser shots and they will disappear, Changmin said into their bond. Junsu knew then that his mate also hated the scars as much as he did.
They will still leave marks. He wasn’t only talking about the scars.
We will bury them so deep, they won’t have a chance to resurface. And even if they do, I will be here with you. Changmin spoke with such determination Junsu couldn’t help but smile. He felt safe with Changmin. The memories would still come back but like Changmin said, he would be there with Junsu.
Junsu cried out when fingers touched his erection again and just like that, everything else ceased to exist. There was only Changmin and sparks of pleasure and desire, a deep desire that Junsu could only translate as he wanted Changmin in him.
Pre-cum had started to pearl on the tip of his cock. With shaking fingers Junsu unbuttoned his mate’s pants, freeing The Second’s erection. Changmin moaned. He lifted his hips for a bit, giving Junsu a chance to tug Changmin’s pants down and leave them both naked.
Changmin maneuvered them so that Junsu was sitting on his lap. Junsu moaned in their kisses as he felt fingers touching him down there, not yet pushing in but only circling his hole, teasing him. He could hear himself panting harshly.
Cold fingers trailed over his skin and few seconds later Junsu realized that it was lube. When had Changmin moved? Junsu was sure he hadn’t seen lube anywhere near their bed. But then one finger pushed in and all coherent thoughts flew out of his barely functioning brain. The finger began to move in and out and it felt so different, so good to finally be touched inside by his mate. Kisses and bites still trailed all over his neck, leaving him panting and wanting for more.
Then one finger became two. Junsu could feel them twisting and spreading his hole, making sure that he was loose enough.
And then he felt it. The single touch sent fire racing through his veins and he cried out in pure pleasure. It felt so amazing. And as if Changmin knew what Junsu was thinking, he began to touch that particular spot inside him again and again until Junsu’s cock was twitching and leaking.
The room spun again and Junsu found himself lying on his back. Changmin’s fingers (there were three of them inside him now) were still moving inside him, leaving the submissive in a whimpering, incoherent mess. He felt butterfly kisses trailed down his chest and stomach until finally it reached his cock.
Junsu moaned as Changmin engulfed him in one go, his fingers never stopped moving. His orgasm came out of nowhere and it was all Junsu could do before he groaned and panted, “Changmin, stop please, I’m going to…” He resisted the urge to bite his lip because Changmin always told him that he wanted to hear Junsu.
He heard Changmin’s voice in his mushy brain. It’s okay, you can let go.
But you’re not even- Junsu couldn’t continue his thought. His orgasm was so close and his fingers were everywhere, trying to find something solid to hold on to and finally he placed them on Changmin’s bent head. Fingers were still moving and with one last touch to his prostrate, Changmin deep-throated him. His orgasm came crashing into him and he shook as white spots burst beneath his eyelids.
Junsu panted and slumped on the bed. It was as if there was no single bone left in his body. He felt satiated, so satisfied and happy.
Warm, familiar lips covered his and Junsu moaned as he tasted himself on Changmin’s tongue. The slick muscle licked every curve and corner in his mouth, coaxing Junsu’s tongue to play and Junsu indulged his mate. He could feel his arousal coming back, slowly but surely. Fingers stroked his cock again and Junsu realized it wouldn’t take long before his cock became hard again. Although he already had his orgasm, something inside him still felt unsatisfied.
Instinctively Junsu knew what it was: his submissive consciousness demanded that he submit to his mate.
So out of intuition rather than anything else, Junsu tilted his head back and bared his neck. Changmin wasn’t stupid and Junsu knew that his mate immediately understood. He felt Changmin bite his shoulder and then his legs were lifted.
There was no time to panic when Junsu felt the head of Changmin’s cock press against his hole, because in what seemed like a flash, Changmin had pushed forward and buried himself inside Junsu in one swift thrust. Junsu cried out, mixed with pain and pleasure. He hadn’t been claimed, or fucked as his old Alpha would say, for so long and Changmin wasn’t exactly normal sized either. He was big, bigger than Junsu had thought earlier.
But thankfully Changmin understood and gave him a chance to adjust. Junsu whispered thanks in their mate bond, in which Changmin replied by kissing him to distract him from the pain. He just stayed there, letting and waiting for Junsu to decide when he could begin to move.
Junsu’s body decided that for him. His arousal hadn’t backed down and it felt good to finally finally have Changmin inside him like this. He tried to thrust up and felt Changmin slip inside deeper, just enough so that it touched his prostrate and it sent lightning bolts coursing inside him.
Changmin understood and began to move. Tiny, small movements at first until Junsu opened his eyes and looked into Changmin’s golden ones. Words had long left his brain and the only thing that came out from his mouth was breathless moans and whimpers. But his eyes conveyed them all. His inner consciousness as a werewolf kicked in and he wanted this mating now.
And it was as if Changmin’s desire melted as one into Junsu’s. The Second claimed his stake. He moved and fucked Junsu with fervor. Junsu cried out in pleasure, that was all he could do after all. His fingers wound themselves in his mate’s hair, bringing him down so that their lips could meet in a harsh kiss.
His prostrate kept being slammed into again and again. He could hear Changmin growl and moan in pleasure. He shifted his knees a bit, bringing Junsu’s legs around his waist and moved faster. Junsu very nearly sobbed. It felt so good and so amazing and so full.
Junsu could feel his cock brush and slide again and again onto Changmin’s muscled stomach. Changmin’s harsh panting near his ear lit tiny sparks in his body. His name was moaned over and over again but Junsu couldn’t respond, he could only moan and cry out and just feel.
It wasn’t long before Junsu found himself on the edge of his orgasm again. He tried to tell Changmin that he was close but somehow he was unsuccessful. However Changmin seemed to understand. Touch yourself for me Junsu, he heard Changmin say into their bond. With shaking fingers he slipped a hand between them and began to stroke. He tried to time it with Changmin’s thrusts but Changmin was going too fast for him to follow.
But it was enough for Junsu. In just five strokes, he was coming, white fluid burst from his cock and covered his fingers and stomach. He could feel his inner muscles clamp down on Changmin’s cock and with two more thrusts the Second groaned and emptied himself in Junsu.
Junsu felt Changmin slumped forward to him and usually he hated that. But this was Changmin and there was nothing hateful about Changmin. In fact, his mate’s weight felt comfortable on top of him like this. Like he was safe and sound, protected from everything in the world, which was exactly what Changmin wanted him to feel.
Suddenly Changmin said, “I love you.”
Junsu grinned. His heart always did that little flutter whenever he was near Changmin and now it was doing somersault. It felt like it would burst from too much happiness. And he knew Changmin also felt what he felt like because Changmin also doubled the love in their bond. “I love you too. Thank you for being my mate,” he whispered.
Changmin hovered on top of Junsu, letting Junsu know what Changmin felt, how happy he was and how grateful he was to have Junsu as a mate. Junsu watched as his mate’s eyes shone with happiness. “Thank you for allowing me to,” Changmin whispered.
And everything felt so complete. Junsu felt like he wanted to die from too much happiness. Changmin smiled and then hugged him again. Don’t die, because I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
Junsu couldn’t help but cry. Every bad memory, every bad experience, somehow, everything seemed worth it. But at the same time they felt so far away, as if Changmin had them buried and locked somewhere where they couldn’t touch Junsu again. Changmin held his promises. His mate had succeeded.
His beloved, dearly loved mate.
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Junsu huffed, seeing the pack’s house in front of him. It felt strangely homey. The house was now a comforting sight, a place he can finally call home. But although he could feel the happiness of being home again, it paled in comparison to what Changmin made him feel. Junsu couldn’t exactly explain what Changmin meant to him, except that he was everything.
However, a million thoughts were running in his mind. The pack members would tease him, that’s for sure, but would Changmin’s rank be affected with their mating? A quick check in the pack’s bond a few days ago indicated that nothing changed, but they wouldn’t know for sure until they met each of the pack members.
Was the pack ready for any of those changes? What would Changmin say?
A warm hand covered his and Junsu turned to see his mate standing next to him. Then suddenly everything seemed twice as better. Changmin didn’t have to speak and Junsu understood. It would be alright. Junsu was everything to Changmin. The taller man smiled and Junsu couldn’t help but smile back.
He stepped through the front porch, opened the door wide and announced in loud voice, “We’re back.”
Welcome home.
-The End-
Author’s Note: IT’S DONE!!!! Half of The Moon is finally done after six months 8DDD
I never thought this story will receive so much love from readers. I've met new wonderful friends because of this fic and it's everything I can hope for and more. So thank you so much for all the lovely comments and supports, each one has made my day a better one.
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There will be a sequel for this story, but it will be focused on Siwon. Of course knowing me, there will be bits and pieces of MinSu scattered everywhere but the main focus will be Siwon. I don't know when I can post it, I haven't even written the plot lol.
Anyway, thank you again for reading and following this story. Hopefully I will see you all in my new and/or ongoing fics. Silent readers, this is the last chapter, would be great if I can know what you guys think ^^
Chapter Sixteen: The Second Life
Chapter Fifteen: The Brink of Life and Death
Chapter Fourteen: The Curiosity
Chapter Thirteen: The Regained Trust
Chapter Twelve: The Second Memories
Chapter Eleven: The Calm Before The Storm
Chapter Ten: The Truth
Chapter Nine: The Losing Battle
Chapter Eight: The Memories
Chapter Seven: The First Step
Chapter Six: The Point of No Return
Chapter Five: The Defiance
Chapter Four: The First Hunt
Chapter Three: The Mate
Chapter Two: The New Pack
Chapter One: The Rescue
The Prologue
The Foreword