DBSK Fic: Half of The Moon (14/16)
Title: Half Of The Moon
Main pairing: Changmin x Junsu
Other pairings: Yunho x Jaejoong; Yoochun x Yoohwan; Kangin x Leeteuk;
Genre: Romance/Angst
Rating: R in this chapter, NC-17 overall
Warnings: THIS FIC CONTAINS LOTS OF ABUSE AT THE BEGINNING, INCLUDING DISTURBING RAPE SCENE, PHYSICAL AND MENTAL ABUSE WHICH MIGHT BE DISTURBING FOR SOME. It also contains very submissive Junsu and INCEST. You've been warned.
Disclaimer: I do not own DBSK/JYJ/Super Junior
Summary: Werewolf!Verse. Junsu was a submissive werewolf in his pack. He was a human once until a pack of rogue werewolves killed his entire family and made him a werewolf. There was nothing more he wanted more than to be dead. Unfortunately fate seemed to have different ideas.
Credit: Thank you for mearii87at Live Journal who has allowed me to use some of her ideas from this gorgeous 'Clair De Lune' universe she has created. Anyone who hasn't read her fics, you really should. They're amazing.
Beta-Ed by harunotenshi, thank you very much! ^^
This universe I've borrowed has been inspired by Patricia Briggs.
AND LOOK I HAVE A BANNER NOW, COURTESY OF THE LOVELY be_ddelusionall ISN'T IT PRETTY?? THANK YOU SO MUCH BB!!! :D
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Half of the Moon
Chapter Fourteen
By: Sharl/zielddhy
The movie was weird. Junsu scrunched his nose as the hero’s spaceship being chased by three flying aliens. One of the aliens shot some laser thing and the spaceship had to do some cool maneuvering between cliffs to narrowly dodge it. He could feel Donghae beside him stiffen for a second and then breathe in relief. Eunhyuk was no doubt was doing the same thing on the other side of Donghae. Those two were completely addicted to aliens.
Junsu huffed and reached for his popcorn, popping two of them in his mouth before slurping on his soda.
He could feel Changmin’s amusement in their bond. Junsu sneaked a glance at his mate who sat on his right side. Changmin was snickering although there was nothing funny on the screen -there were five flying aliens now instead of three, so no comedy of some sort.
What’s so funny? Junsu asked. Sometimes it’s really convenient having a bond with Changmin. Nobody could shush them up while in the cinema because technically they didn’t speak out loud.
Nothing, the movie is funny.
Junsu rolled his eyes and settled back in his seat. He knew Changmin was amused because of him but that’s okay because Junsu was secretly pleased about it anyway. He then tried to focus on the movie again. The chase had just ended, now the hero’s spaceship was safely out from the alien’s headquarters and was on the way back to earth. Somewhere between the journey and the landing back in earth, Junsu felt Changmin pulling up the arm rest between them and scooted closer to Junsu.
Then a hand sneaked around his shoulder and Junsu allowed himself to be pulled. It was comfortable, leaning against Changmin this way. And the giddy feeling Changmin flooded their bond with was enough to make Junsu smile amidst the dark theater room.
Half an hour later the movie ended and the four of them staggered out from the cinema. This was Donghae’s idea actually, there was a new alien movie he wanted to watch. It was kind of perfect because Yoochun and Yoohwan wanted to talk to Yunho about the werewolf pack they met and they preferred to do that without anyone in the room. Siwon was on a late night shift at the hospital, Minho wanted to go clubbing with his friends so it was only the four of them who went for the movie.
Changmin made a face hearing Donghae still talking excitedly about the aliens with Eunhyuk. The Second’s face was all shut the hell up and he looked ready to snap at the other two. So Junsu did the first thing came to his mind, he entwined their fingers together. It was enough to make Changmin clamp his mouth shut.
They decided to have dinner outside when a quick check to the pack bond confirmed that Yunho was still angry at Yoochun for not informing him earlier. Pizza was unanimously voted and there was a good pizzeria nearby. The waitress seemed mortified when they ordered seven pizzas at once, but quickly complied when Donghae looked around the table and said will seven pizzas be enough?
Junsu leaned in his seat, Changmin beside him again. Eunhyuk and Donghae were no longer talking about the movie fortunately, and soon the four were discussing the vacancy of P.E. teacher in Donghae’s school since Junsu had resigned. Donghae said the students, especially the girls, missed him a lot. Changmin scowled but Junsu kind of smiled so the Second didn’t say anything.
The pizzas soon arrived. Changmin gave Junsu two slices at once after removing the paprika on them. It made Junsu really happy. He didn’t expect Changmin to remember that he hated paprika, something he said only on a whim back at the cabin.
Don’t be so surprised. I remember everything about you.
I’m not surprised, only really really happy.
Changmin was smiling through the rest of their dinner.
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Two days later Yunho was no longer angry at the brothers. He said that he had spoken with the Marrock but Kangin said that because technically the other pack hadn’t attacked Yoochun and Yoohwan, there was nothing that could be done. Besides Yoochun and Yoohwan were at fault too because they entered another pack’s territory without confirming with the resident Alpha first. Kangin only reminded them to stay on guard, it would be the full moon in two days and so werewolves’ aggressiveness would increase.
Junsu remembered about the aggressiveness, but what he nearly forgot was the sex arousal would increase too.
The first time he noticed that was when there was a tension in the pack’s house. Minho and Siwon hide themselves in their room once again, and the mated pairs rarely came out from theirs. His sensitive werewolf’s nose could smell the distinct scent of semen around the house. This would be his third full moon with Yunho’s pack so logically he should have gotten used to all of this right now. But apparently that wasn’t the case.
His body began to feel strange. He started to feel restless, there’s a constant wave of want running through him. Junsu was mortified when he woke up with a morning erection one day, something he hadn’t felt since he became a werewolf. The feeling was so weird and the erection didn’t go down until he took a very cold shower.
It also didn’t help that Changmin’s arousal trickled into their bond despite the dominant’s effort to block it. Changmin was embarrassed because of that. He began to spend less time with Junsu, keeping minimum contact whenever they were together. Junsu missed holding Changmin’s hand and kissing him. But he also knew that the slightest touch might snap Changmin’s self control. He just hoped that Changmin wouldn’t do anything stupid, like spending the full moon in silver cage again.
Silver cage. It’s a wonder how the thought of it didn’t bring any bad memories to Junsu anymore. It only brought him pain because it reminded him when Changmin was in one because of him. Junsu never wanted to feel like that again.
That afternoon Junsu just came home from a run. Changmin was on his way home, and everybody else was out from the pack house. Or at least that’s what he thought. He had just opened the front door when a wave of arousal and pleasure hit him hard. His eyes immediately glowed golden and what he saw made him whine.
Yoochun was sitting on a sofa, Yoohwan straddled him. Their shirts were unbuttoned but they weren’t naked yet, their jeans were undone and they were kissing. Hands roaming everywhere and at one point Yoohwan moaned appreciatively when Yoochun cupped his ass.
Immediately Junsu couldn’t think straight. His wolf was howling in heat and calling for Changmin’s wolf. Yoohwan and Yoochun hadn’t stopped. The older had his hands inside Yoohwan’s jeans now, obviously touching his cock, their kisses grew heated.
Unconsciously he licked his lips. Changmin Changmin Changmin. He touched their bond and felt Changmin jerked at once. His mate was driving beyond speed limit now. He could feel Changmin’s impatience and concern. Wolf was howling again. All Junsu could hear was his whine, his need to mate and it was all he could think of.
Yoohwan cried out. His cock was hard and Yoochun was pumping two fingers inside him, biting his brother’s collarbones and growled at the tightness. Two fingers soon became three. Yoohwan was stroking his brother’s cock with lube to prepare him.
Junsu wanted to tear his eyes off but he couldn’t. His eyes were fixed on what he saw, but in his mind they were not the brothers, they were him and Changmin. He gulped, growling low because he wanted to know what it felt like to touch Changmin like that, to have Changmin so close and so near and inside him.
The sound of gravel crunching outside was heard and the scent of Changmin wafted in the air. Junsu keened. His mate was so near and he smelled so good and there’s nothing more he wanted right now but to mate. The front door was slammed open. Junsu stared at Changmin’s tall form with a small whine, eyes clouded with lust. Changmin looked so good, so amazing, so handsome. Their eyes met for a second and Junsu could see clearly the want and lust in Changmin’s eyes.
Suddenly the image of his old pack flashed through his mind. Junsu whimpered. His mind was whirling, in the midst of Yoochun and Yoohwan’s moans he could hear Changmin’s low growl. He could feel the Second’s dominance vibrating around the room. Someone else was growling and then Changmin growled again. His dominance increased, but it sort of shielded Junsu away so he didn’t feel scared and then everything stopped.
He gasped for breath. Blinking, Junsu could feel his sanity return. His brain began to function normally again and his sexual arousal was gone. He could sense Changmin’s concern through their bond and it took him a minute before realizing that Changmin was beside him, looking at him in concern.
“Are you okay?”
“Yeah,” Junsu managed to answer. He sneaked a glance at Yoochun and Yoohwan who were seated on opposite couch. The two were now panting heavily, like something was keeping them from each other and Yoochun looked torn. “What happened?” Junsu asked.
“I sort of… asked them to stop,” Changmin mumbled.
“Oh.” Junsu didn’t know how to answer. Changmin had just used his rank and power as a Second. All because Junsu was in heat and the lust in Changmin’s eyes reminded him of his old pack and so he got scared for a moment. Well damn.
“Sorry, Su,” Yoohwan said suddenly, “We didn’t expect you to be back so soon.”
Changmin sighed. “You know better to keep those things in your own room. What were you guys thinking?”
“We weren’t thinking,” Yoochun replied.
Yoohwan then said some more apologies but Junsu didn’t hear him. He knew why Yoochun and Yoohwan got so careless. With full moon so close, and also the bad experience because there was that other pack they met the other day was enough to make them both stay on edge. Moreover Yunho was kind of pissed at them a few days ago and it must’ve made them feel guilty. One of the ways to let out all the tension was of course having sex.
Junsu knew that so it’s not like he wasn’t expecting this. He just didn’t know the wave would hit him so hard. “I’m going to take a shower,” he announced softly. Maybe a cold shower would help him clear his mind.
However, he missed Changmin’s longing glance directed at him.
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The shower didn’t help.
The image was still so vivid in his mind, how did Yoohwan looked so… pleasured? From what Junsu had experienced, sex was not good. Yes he felt the want, he felt the need and it felt amazing when finally he smelled Changmin’s scent back then. He vaguely remembered the wondrous feeling when realizing his mate was near. He remembered thinking and wondering what it would feel like when he had Changmin inside him.
But then the flash of memory of his old pack was like a douse of cold water. The fact that it was the lust in Changmin’s eyes which reminded him of that made it worse. Why of all things, had it reminded him of his old pack? This was Changmin for god’s sake, his precious, understanding mate who had gone through so much for Junsu.
And suddenly one horrible thought crept to him: what if Changmin felt like it was his fault all over again? What if Changmin felt guilty for scaring Junsu? Oh shit, the silver cage. Cursing, he dried his body, hurriedly put on some clothes and literally ran out from the bathroom. The Second was not in his room. Oh god, where was he? Was Junsu too late?
Junsu? What’s wrong? Why are you panicking? His mate’s voice sounded alarming.
Junsu breathed in relief. Changmin was alright. I’m fine, he said to their bond, where are you?
Changmin was quiet for a while. I’m in your room. Are you sure you’re alright? You feel… different.
Yes I am. I’ll be there in a minute.
Twenty seconds later he was in his room and sure enough, Changmin was there. Standing by the window, brows furrowed in concern and looked as tall as ever. Junsu suppressed the desire running through him; it wasn’t the time. He needed to make sure that his mate was alright. However every comforting word suddenly refused to leave his mouth and all he could think about was the same thing he did at the shower. “I never felt like that,” Junsu blurted out without realizing.
Changmin blinked once. “What?”
Junsu blushed and looked down. “Sorry, it’s just, this full moon thing is getting to me. It never bothered me before, it’s not like I’m a newborn but somehow this time it’s different. I can’t, I can’t control it.” He didn’t need to explain further. He knew Changmin knew what he was talking about. Why is it that this time the sexual arousal felt so strong? “It feels like this is not my body.”
The Second didn’t answer immediately. “I don’t know Junsu,” he said finally, “Maybe it’s because you’re more comfortable with yourself now?”
“Yes that might be the reason.” Now that Junsu no longer hated himself, perhaps his body started to focus on other things. Or maybe it already had, but he was in no condition to realize that. Being raped and abused and locked up was definitely not the way to feel sexual arousal. And full moons after his old pack was gone were also not without incident. Changmin rejected him, him freaking out and everything.
Still, his mind wondered back to Yoohwan. How did it feel? To be pleasured like that by someone you love? Junsu had seen his share of someone being pleasured, especially since he was the one who did the pleasuring but how did it feel?
Before he could stop himself, he already said. “Show me.”
“What do you mean?”
Realizing his slip, Junsu inwardly cursed. But he knew this was it, his only chance to know and Changmin was the only who can gave him that. Mustering up his courage, Junsu licked his lips and stared straight at his mate. “Show me what it feels like. What Yoohwan felt.”
Changmin’s eyes widened and without touching the bond Junsu knew his mate was stunned. “Are you sure?” Changmin asked after what felt like eternity. Are you sure you’re ready? Were the hidden words.
Junsu didn’t know. He might be feeling ready, but he didn’t have full control of his instinctive reactions yet. What if he freaked out again when Changmin touched his… private parts? What if flashes of those ugly memories came back again? He didn’t know but there was only one way to find out. He has to try.
He said this to Changmin, who had to take deep breath in order to calm himself. The Second closed his eyes and Junsu fidgeted. What’s wrong? Why did Changmin act like this? Did he not want to touch Junsu? He thought it was what every dominant would want, taking and marking their submissive. Was it because Junsu had already been touched by too many people? Maybe deep down Changmin felt disgusted at him.
Don’t start thinking stupid thoughts again or I won’t pick you up at the library anymore. His mate’s voice resonated firmly in Junsu’s mind.
That shut Junsu up, because he really enjoyed it when Changmin picked him up. It felt nice to be taken care of and he didn’t want it to stop. Finally Changmin opened his eyes. “Okay,” he said, “I’ve contacted Yunho and ask him to… control me in case I lost control.”
“Oh. Well. Okay.” Junsu stammered.
“But I won’t mate with you today, no no no,” He interrupted when Junsu opened his mouth to protest, “Don’t even think that I don’t want you. It’s just that, we’ll take it slow okay? I want you to become comfortable and get used to this first, and then we’ll take it further from there.”
Junsu was unsure. He didn’t know what to say. How would they take things slow? As far as he knew, mating only required sex, and sex equaled to fucking. There was nothing slow in fucking especially when it comes to werewolves fucking.
Suddenly Changmin was in front of him. The Second’s body was shaking with effort to control himself, he shut his eyes and took a deep breath once. And then he seemed much calmer. When he opened his eyes again, all Junsu could see was the love and concern and happiness shone in them. “Junsu,” Changmin said, “You have no idea how happy I am right now. I can’t believe that this beautiful, gorgeous mate is mine.”
Junsu blushed at once and it made Changmin smile even wider. He stroked Junsu’s cheek before leaning forward to whisper, “Thank you for being my mate.” Junsu wanted to tear up. Changmin said it with so much love, so much adoration. And when they pressed their lips together, he felt like flying. They kissed again and again and again until the now-familiar desire crept back up to him. He returned the kiss with equal fervor.
An arm wrapped around his waist. Junsu shivered, mind half-wondering why he wasn’t afraid of Changmin’s touch anymore. Changmin had hugged and kissed him so many times, the gestures were comforting instead of triggering bad memories. His mate’s tongue swiped against his lips and out of reflex Junsu opened his lips, allowing that slick tongue to slide in. It licked and teased and coaxed his own to play and so Junsu followed suit.
His arms came around Changmin’s tall form, one wound around his neck. It felt so good, so right and so perfect. Oh god, if Junsu already felt breathless from kissing Changmin during full moon like this, he wondered what it would feel like to finally mate with him.
Changmin walked him back towards the desk and sat him on the chair. Junsu blinked once, what was Changmin doing? His mate leaned over him, but then those lips came back, this time attaching itself to his neck and all thoughts were forgotten. The Second began to suck, leaving a mark to let everyone know that he was his. Somebody was moaning and it took Junsu twenty seconds later to realize that it was him. The arm around Changmin’s neck tightened as he cried out when his mate bit him.
It was amazing. This was nothing like he’d ever imagined. He didn’t feel scared or even intimidated; Changmin’s constant feeling of love and adoration pouring through their mate bond like summer rain. When Changmin marked him it felt like the most natural thing in the world.
And Junsu wanted more.
His erection began to swell; Changmin’s wonderful constant ministrations made everything spin in a breathtaking way. Junsu was still fully clothed, his body felt like it was on fire but there was nothing he could do except stay there and moan his pleasure, twitching every time Changmin did something that was beyond amazing.
Changmin slid down, leaving kisses on Junsu’s shirt, hands roaming to leave comforting gestures to his overheated skin. He only stopped when he finally got on his knees, brows furrowed for a moment before it was smoothed out. Junsu knew what was happening. Changmin’s dominant sense protested when he kneeled to someone that was less dominant than him. But the fact that it was over almost immediately made him understand that Changmin was looking at him as a mate rather than just someone else.
Those lips still left butterfly kisses on his stomach. It felt ticklish and unconsciously Junsu laughed a little. Changmin’s head shot up, eyes widened in disbelief before a huge grin broke on his face. Junsu could feel how happy Changmin was when he realized that Junsu was happy, that Junsu was enjoying this.
Junsu smiled down at his mate, telling him that it was okay, it felt beyond wonderful and could Changmin just continue please?
Changmin laughed and with a smile on his face he continued trailing kisses even further down. Junsu’s breath hitched when it finally reached the tent in his pants. He could feel his cock twitch in anticipation. His mate left one last kiss on his body, he glanced up at him, a question in his eyes. Are you sure? There’s no turning back.
I am. I want this. I want you.
He saw Changmin shudder. Then his dominant unbuttoned Junsu’s jeans, he didn’t tug it down but Junsu flinched automatically. “Sssh,” Changmin whispered, trailing kisses once again, “I won’t hurt you. Trust me.”
“I know, it’s just-,“ Junsu hated the way his body still was reacting like that. They hadn’t done anything more than hugs and kisses so the fact that someone was touching him in an intimate way was triggering a different reaction, even when his brain didn’t conjure up bad memories. “Stupid reflex.”
“There’s nothing stupid about you Junsu.”
He didn’t have an answer for that, not when Changmin said in with so much love, like he really really believed it. Changmin pulled his zipper down, there was already a wet patch on Junsu’s boxers and it was kind of embarrassing for Junsu. He squirmed in his seat, wanting to close his legs but Changmin’s hands didn’t let him. Instead the Second placed his lips on the wet spot and licked.
Junsu cried out. What Changmin wanted to do finally caught up with him and oh shit it never occurred to him. He always thought that a blowjob was something dirty and low and could only be done by a submissive but apparently that wasn’t the case. He moaned again when Changmin sucked his cock through his boxers, fingers twitching in response.
After what felt like eternity, Changmin finally pulled Junsu’s boxers down just enough to free his erection. The cold air hit him and Junsu gasped. His brain still got a little part left that was still functioning at the moment and he briefly felt relieved that his mate didn’t take Junsu’s pants all the way off.
But when Changmin’s lips finally touched his cock, all coherent thoughts flew away. Out of habit Junsu bit his lips to keep himself from crying out. Damn it, it felt so good. Was this what his old pack always felt when he gave them head? No wonder they liked it so much.
Changmin’s tongue began to lick and he sucked harder. Junsu moaned again, a wave of pleasure ran through every cell on his body. This felt beyond amazing. If Changmin’s hand wasn’t pinning him down to keep him from moving around Junsu was sure he would’ve thrust up. He wanted more, he couldn’t get enough.
Junsu, don’t bit your lip, I want to hear you. He heard his mate’s voice through their bond but his brain refused to work. He couldn’t process any thoughts. All he could do was moan and gasp and just-oh god. Changmin had just deep-throated him.
He cried out again. The pleasure was building up and up and every nerve was on edge. His orgasm came swirling out of nowhere, pooling in his gut but Changmin didn’t stop. He kept going. His tongue flicked and licked on Junsu’s sensitive cock. Changmin sucked harder if that was possible, as if he knew that Junsu was close. He could feel his body begin to shake, the pleasure kept mounting up and Changmin took him all the way down, lips touching Junsu’s skin.
Let go.
And Junsu did. White spots burst in his vision as his orgasm crashed through him.
He could hear Changmin moan, felt him swallowing as he gave his cock one final lick before he drew back. Junsu was still panting, his body slumped in exhaustion and it felt like he had just experienced the most wonderful sensation in the world. He had had his fair share of orgasms before, but none of them felt like this.
Somebody was kissing his closed eyes and Junsu hummed in contentment when Changmin’s voice brushed his mind through their bond. Thank you for trusting me, he said. Junsu could sense how happy and sated Changmin was, despite the fact that right now the Second had a very prominent erection.
Don’t worry about it, I’ll think of that alien movie we saw and it’ll go down in a minute.
He grumbled, half agreeing half complaining because that alien movie was a huge turn off. Even his afterglow was gone now when he remembered the way those aliens looked. Changmin laughed and agreed. He then moved to kiss Junsu’s nose before going slightly further to kiss his lips, letting Junsu taste himself. Next time don’t bite your lips, I want to hear all of you.
Junsu opened his eyes. “Next time?”
This time Changmin blinked, confusion written on his face. “Of course, you don’t think that will be the last time I give you a blow job, do you?”
-End of Chapter Fourteen-
Chapter Fifteen: The Brink of Life and Death
Chapter Thirteen: The Regained Trust
Chapter Twelve: The Second Memories
Chapter Eleven: The Calm Before The Storm
Chapter Ten: The Truth
Chapter Nine: The Losing Battle
Chapter Eight: The Memories
Chapter Seven: The First Step
Chapter Six: The Point of No Return
Chapter Five: The Defiance
Chapter Four: The First Hunt
Chapter Three: The Mate
Chapter Two: The New Pack
Chapter One: The Rescue
The Prologue
The Foreword
Main pairing: Changmin x Junsu
Other pairings: Yunho x Jaejoong; Yoochun x Yoohwan; Kangin x Leeteuk;
Genre: Romance/Angst
Rating: R in this chapter, NC-17 overall
Warnings: THIS FIC CONTAINS LOTS OF ABUSE AT THE BEGINNING, INCLUDING DISTURBING RAPE SCENE, PHYSICAL AND MENTAL ABUSE WHICH MIGHT BE DISTURBING FOR SOME. It also contains very submissive Junsu and INCEST. You've been warned.
Disclaimer: I do not own DBSK/JYJ/Super Junior
Summary: Werewolf!Verse. Junsu was a submissive werewolf in his pack. He was a human once until a pack of rogue werewolves killed his entire family and made him a werewolf. There was nothing more he wanted more than to be dead. Unfortunately fate seemed to have different ideas.
Credit: Thank you for mearii87at Live Journal who has allowed me to use some of her ideas from this gorgeous 'Clair De Lune' universe she has created. Anyone who hasn't read her fics, you really should. They're amazing.
Beta-Ed by harunotenshi, thank you very much! ^^
This universe I've borrowed has been inspired by Patricia Briggs.
AND LOOK I HAVE A BANNER NOW, COURTESY OF THE LOVELY be_ddelusionall ISN'T IT PRETTY?? THANK YOU SO MUCH BB!!! :D
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Half of the Moon
Chapter Fourteen
By: Sharl/zielddhy
The movie was weird. Junsu scrunched his nose as the hero’s spaceship being chased by three flying aliens. One of the aliens shot some laser thing and the spaceship had to do some cool maneuvering between cliffs to narrowly dodge it. He could feel Donghae beside him stiffen for a second and then breathe in relief. Eunhyuk was no doubt was doing the same thing on the other side of Donghae. Those two were completely addicted to aliens.
Junsu huffed and reached for his popcorn, popping two of them in his mouth before slurping on his soda.
He could feel Changmin’s amusement in their bond. Junsu sneaked a glance at his mate who sat on his right side. Changmin was snickering although there was nothing funny on the screen -there were five flying aliens now instead of three, so no comedy of some sort.
What’s so funny? Junsu asked. Sometimes it’s really convenient having a bond with Changmin. Nobody could shush them up while in the cinema because technically they didn’t speak out loud.
Nothing, the movie is funny.
Junsu rolled his eyes and settled back in his seat. He knew Changmin was amused because of him but that’s okay because Junsu was secretly pleased about it anyway. He then tried to focus on the movie again. The chase had just ended, now the hero’s spaceship was safely out from the alien’s headquarters and was on the way back to earth. Somewhere between the journey and the landing back in earth, Junsu felt Changmin pulling up the arm rest between them and scooted closer to Junsu.
Then a hand sneaked around his shoulder and Junsu allowed himself to be pulled. It was comfortable, leaning against Changmin this way. And the giddy feeling Changmin flooded their bond with was enough to make Junsu smile amidst the dark theater room.
Half an hour later the movie ended and the four of them staggered out from the cinema. This was Donghae’s idea actually, there was a new alien movie he wanted to watch. It was kind of perfect because Yoochun and Yoohwan wanted to talk to Yunho about the werewolf pack they met and they preferred to do that without anyone in the room. Siwon was on a late night shift at the hospital, Minho wanted to go clubbing with his friends so it was only the four of them who went for the movie.
Changmin made a face hearing Donghae still talking excitedly about the aliens with Eunhyuk. The Second’s face was all shut the hell up and he looked ready to snap at the other two. So Junsu did the first thing came to his mind, he entwined their fingers together. It was enough to make Changmin clamp his mouth shut.
They decided to have dinner outside when a quick check to the pack bond confirmed that Yunho was still angry at Yoochun for not informing him earlier. Pizza was unanimously voted and there was a good pizzeria nearby. The waitress seemed mortified when they ordered seven pizzas at once, but quickly complied when Donghae looked around the table and said will seven pizzas be enough?
Junsu leaned in his seat, Changmin beside him again. Eunhyuk and Donghae were no longer talking about the movie fortunately, and soon the four were discussing the vacancy of P.E. teacher in Donghae’s school since Junsu had resigned. Donghae said the students, especially the girls, missed him a lot. Changmin scowled but Junsu kind of smiled so the Second didn’t say anything.
The pizzas soon arrived. Changmin gave Junsu two slices at once after removing the paprika on them. It made Junsu really happy. He didn’t expect Changmin to remember that he hated paprika, something he said only on a whim back at the cabin.
Don’t be so surprised. I remember everything about you.
I’m not surprised, only really really happy.
Changmin was smiling through the rest of their dinner.
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Two days later Yunho was no longer angry at the brothers. He said that he had spoken with the Marrock but Kangin said that because technically the other pack hadn’t attacked Yoochun and Yoohwan, there was nothing that could be done. Besides Yoochun and Yoohwan were at fault too because they entered another pack’s territory without confirming with the resident Alpha first. Kangin only reminded them to stay on guard, it would be the full moon in two days and so werewolves’ aggressiveness would increase.
Junsu remembered about the aggressiveness, but what he nearly forgot was the sex arousal would increase too.
The first time he noticed that was when there was a tension in the pack’s house. Minho and Siwon hide themselves in their room once again, and the mated pairs rarely came out from theirs. His sensitive werewolf’s nose could smell the distinct scent of semen around the house. This would be his third full moon with Yunho’s pack so logically he should have gotten used to all of this right now. But apparently that wasn’t the case.
His body began to feel strange. He started to feel restless, there’s a constant wave of want running through him. Junsu was mortified when he woke up with a morning erection one day, something he hadn’t felt since he became a werewolf. The feeling was so weird and the erection didn’t go down until he took a very cold shower.
It also didn’t help that Changmin’s arousal trickled into their bond despite the dominant’s effort to block it. Changmin was embarrassed because of that. He began to spend less time with Junsu, keeping minimum contact whenever they were together. Junsu missed holding Changmin’s hand and kissing him. But he also knew that the slightest touch might snap Changmin’s self control. He just hoped that Changmin wouldn’t do anything stupid, like spending the full moon in silver cage again.
Silver cage. It’s a wonder how the thought of it didn’t bring any bad memories to Junsu anymore. It only brought him pain because it reminded him when Changmin was in one because of him. Junsu never wanted to feel like that again.
That afternoon Junsu just came home from a run. Changmin was on his way home, and everybody else was out from the pack house. Or at least that’s what he thought. He had just opened the front door when a wave of arousal and pleasure hit him hard. His eyes immediately glowed golden and what he saw made him whine.
Yoochun was sitting on a sofa, Yoohwan straddled him. Their shirts were unbuttoned but they weren’t naked yet, their jeans were undone and they were kissing. Hands roaming everywhere and at one point Yoohwan moaned appreciatively when Yoochun cupped his ass.
Immediately Junsu couldn’t think straight. His wolf was howling in heat and calling for Changmin’s wolf. Yoohwan and Yoochun hadn’t stopped. The older had his hands inside Yoohwan’s jeans now, obviously touching his cock, their kisses grew heated.
Unconsciously he licked his lips. Changmin Changmin Changmin. He touched their bond and felt Changmin jerked at once. His mate was driving beyond speed limit now. He could feel Changmin’s impatience and concern. Wolf was howling again. All Junsu could hear was his whine, his need to mate and it was all he could think of.
Yoohwan cried out. His cock was hard and Yoochun was pumping two fingers inside him, biting his brother’s collarbones and growled at the tightness. Two fingers soon became three. Yoohwan was stroking his brother’s cock with lube to prepare him.
Junsu wanted to tear his eyes off but he couldn’t. His eyes were fixed on what he saw, but in his mind they were not the brothers, they were him and Changmin. He gulped, growling low because he wanted to know what it felt like to touch Changmin like that, to have Changmin so close and so near and inside him.
The sound of gravel crunching outside was heard and the scent of Changmin wafted in the air. Junsu keened. His mate was so near and he smelled so good and there’s nothing more he wanted right now but to mate. The front door was slammed open. Junsu stared at Changmin’s tall form with a small whine, eyes clouded with lust. Changmin looked so good, so amazing, so handsome. Their eyes met for a second and Junsu could see clearly the want and lust in Changmin’s eyes.
Suddenly the image of his old pack flashed through his mind. Junsu whimpered. His mind was whirling, in the midst of Yoochun and Yoohwan’s moans he could hear Changmin’s low growl. He could feel the Second’s dominance vibrating around the room. Someone else was growling and then Changmin growled again. His dominance increased, but it sort of shielded Junsu away so he didn’t feel scared and then everything stopped.
He gasped for breath. Blinking, Junsu could feel his sanity return. His brain began to function normally again and his sexual arousal was gone. He could sense Changmin’s concern through their bond and it took him a minute before realizing that Changmin was beside him, looking at him in concern.
“Are you okay?”
“Yeah,” Junsu managed to answer. He sneaked a glance at Yoochun and Yoohwan who were seated on opposite couch. The two were now panting heavily, like something was keeping them from each other and Yoochun looked torn. “What happened?” Junsu asked.
“I sort of… asked them to stop,” Changmin mumbled.
“Oh.” Junsu didn’t know how to answer. Changmin had just used his rank and power as a Second. All because Junsu was in heat and the lust in Changmin’s eyes reminded him of his old pack and so he got scared for a moment. Well damn.
“Sorry, Su,” Yoohwan said suddenly, “We didn’t expect you to be back so soon.”
Changmin sighed. “You know better to keep those things in your own room. What were you guys thinking?”
“We weren’t thinking,” Yoochun replied.
Yoohwan then said some more apologies but Junsu didn’t hear him. He knew why Yoochun and Yoohwan got so careless. With full moon so close, and also the bad experience because there was that other pack they met the other day was enough to make them both stay on edge. Moreover Yunho was kind of pissed at them a few days ago and it must’ve made them feel guilty. One of the ways to let out all the tension was of course having sex.
Junsu knew that so it’s not like he wasn’t expecting this. He just didn’t know the wave would hit him so hard. “I’m going to take a shower,” he announced softly. Maybe a cold shower would help him clear his mind.
However, he missed Changmin’s longing glance directed at him.
+
The shower didn’t help.
The image was still so vivid in his mind, how did Yoohwan looked so… pleasured? From what Junsu had experienced, sex was not good. Yes he felt the want, he felt the need and it felt amazing when finally he smelled Changmin’s scent back then. He vaguely remembered the wondrous feeling when realizing his mate was near. He remembered thinking and wondering what it would feel like when he had Changmin inside him.
But then the flash of memory of his old pack was like a douse of cold water. The fact that it was the lust in Changmin’s eyes which reminded him of that made it worse. Why of all things, had it reminded him of his old pack? This was Changmin for god’s sake, his precious, understanding mate who had gone through so much for Junsu.
And suddenly one horrible thought crept to him: what if Changmin felt like it was his fault all over again? What if Changmin felt guilty for scaring Junsu? Oh shit, the silver cage. Cursing, he dried his body, hurriedly put on some clothes and literally ran out from the bathroom. The Second was not in his room. Oh god, where was he? Was Junsu too late?
Junsu? What’s wrong? Why are you panicking? His mate’s voice sounded alarming.
Junsu breathed in relief. Changmin was alright. I’m fine, he said to their bond, where are you?
Changmin was quiet for a while. I’m in your room. Are you sure you’re alright? You feel… different.
Yes I am. I’ll be there in a minute.
Twenty seconds later he was in his room and sure enough, Changmin was there. Standing by the window, brows furrowed in concern and looked as tall as ever. Junsu suppressed the desire running through him; it wasn’t the time. He needed to make sure that his mate was alright. However every comforting word suddenly refused to leave his mouth and all he could think about was the same thing he did at the shower. “I never felt like that,” Junsu blurted out without realizing.
Changmin blinked once. “What?”
Junsu blushed and looked down. “Sorry, it’s just, this full moon thing is getting to me. It never bothered me before, it’s not like I’m a newborn but somehow this time it’s different. I can’t, I can’t control it.” He didn’t need to explain further. He knew Changmin knew what he was talking about. Why is it that this time the sexual arousal felt so strong? “It feels like this is not my body.”
The Second didn’t answer immediately. “I don’t know Junsu,” he said finally, “Maybe it’s because you’re more comfortable with yourself now?”
“Yes that might be the reason.” Now that Junsu no longer hated himself, perhaps his body started to focus on other things. Or maybe it already had, but he was in no condition to realize that. Being raped and abused and locked up was definitely not the way to feel sexual arousal. And full moons after his old pack was gone were also not without incident. Changmin rejected him, him freaking out and everything.
Still, his mind wondered back to Yoohwan. How did it feel? To be pleasured like that by someone you love? Junsu had seen his share of someone being pleasured, especially since he was the one who did the pleasuring but how did it feel?
Before he could stop himself, he already said. “Show me.”
“What do you mean?”
Realizing his slip, Junsu inwardly cursed. But he knew this was it, his only chance to know and Changmin was the only who can gave him that. Mustering up his courage, Junsu licked his lips and stared straight at his mate. “Show me what it feels like. What Yoohwan felt.”
Changmin’s eyes widened and without touching the bond Junsu knew his mate was stunned. “Are you sure?” Changmin asked after what felt like eternity. Are you sure you’re ready? Were the hidden words.
Junsu didn’t know. He might be feeling ready, but he didn’t have full control of his instinctive reactions yet. What if he freaked out again when Changmin touched his… private parts? What if flashes of those ugly memories came back again? He didn’t know but there was only one way to find out. He has to try.
He said this to Changmin, who had to take deep breath in order to calm himself. The Second closed his eyes and Junsu fidgeted. What’s wrong? Why did Changmin act like this? Did he not want to touch Junsu? He thought it was what every dominant would want, taking and marking their submissive. Was it because Junsu had already been touched by too many people? Maybe deep down Changmin felt disgusted at him.
Don’t start thinking stupid thoughts again or I won’t pick you up at the library anymore. His mate’s voice resonated firmly in Junsu’s mind.
That shut Junsu up, because he really enjoyed it when Changmin picked him up. It felt nice to be taken care of and he didn’t want it to stop. Finally Changmin opened his eyes. “Okay,” he said, “I’ve contacted Yunho and ask him to… control me in case I lost control.”
“Oh. Well. Okay.” Junsu stammered.
“But I won’t mate with you today, no no no,” He interrupted when Junsu opened his mouth to protest, “Don’t even think that I don’t want you. It’s just that, we’ll take it slow okay? I want you to become comfortable and get used to this first, and then we’ll take it further from there.”
Junsu was unsure. He didn’t know what to say. How would they take things slow? As far as he knew, mating only required sex, and sex equaled to fucking. There was nothing slow in fucking especially when it comes to werewolves fucking.
Suddenly Changmin was in front of him. The Second’s body was shaking with effort to control himself, he shut his eyes and took a deep breath once. And then he seemed much calmer. When he opened his eyes again, all Junsu could see was the love and concern and happiness shone in them. “Junsu,” Changmin said, “You have no idea how happy I am right now. I can’t believe that this beautiful, gorgeous mate is mine.”
Junsu blushed at once and it made Changmin smile even wider. He stroked Junsu’s cheek before leaning forward to whisper, “Thank you for being my mate.” Junsu wanted to tear up. Changmin said it with so much love, so much adoration. And when they pressed their lips together, he felt like flying. They kissed again and again and again until the now-familiar desire crept back up to him. He returned the kiss with equal fervor.
An arm wrapped around his waist. Junsu shivered, mind half-wondering why he wasn’t afraid of Changmin’s touch anymore. Changmin had hugged and kissed him so many times, the gestures were comforting instead of triggering bad memories. His mate’s tongue swiped against his lips and out of reflex Junsu opened his lips, allowing that slick tongue to slide in. It licked and teased and coaxed his own to play and so Junsu followed suit.
His arms came around Changmin’s tall form, one wound around his neck. It felt so good, so right and so perfect. Oh god, if Junsu already felt breathless from kissing Changmin during full moon like this, he wondered what it would feel like to finally mate with him.
Changmin walked him back towards the desk and sat him on the chair. Junsu blinked once, what was Changmin doing? His mate leaned over him, but then those lips came back, this time attaching itself to his neck and all thoughts were forgotten. The Second began to suck, leaving a mark to let everyone know that he was his. Somebody was moaning and it took Junsu twenty seconds later to realize that it was him. The arm around Changmin’s neck tightened as he cried out when his mate bit him.
It was amazing. This was nothing like he’d ever imagined. He didn’t feel scared or even intimidated; Changmin’s constant feeling of love and adoration pouring through their mate bond like summer rain. When Changmin marked him it felt like the most natural thing in the world.
And Junsu wanted more.
His erection began to swell; Changmin’s wonderful constant ministrations made everything spin in a breathtaking way. Junsu was still fully clothed, his body felt like it was on fire but there was nothing he could do except stay there and moan his pleasure, twitching every time Changmin did something that was beyond amazing.
Changmin slid down, leaving kisses on Junsu’s shirt, hands roaming to leave comforting gestures to his overheated skin. He only stopped when he finally got on his knees, brows furrowed for a moment before it was smoothed out. Junsu knew what was happening. Changmin’s dominant sense protested when he kneeled to someone that was less dominant than him. But the fact that it was over almost immediately made him understand that Changmin was looking at him as a mate rather than just someone else.
Those lips still left butterfly kisses on his stomach. It felt ticklish and unconsciously Junsu laughed a little. Changmin’s head shot up, eyes widened in disbelief before a huge grin broke on his face. Junsu could feel how happy Changmin was when he realized that Junsu was happy, that Junsu was enjoying this.
Junsu smiled down at his mate, telling him that it was okay, it felt beyond wonderful and could Changmin just continue please?
Changmin laughed and with a smile on his face he continued trailing kisses even further down. Junsu’s breath hitched when it finally reached the tent in his pants. He could feel his cock twitch in anticipation. His mate left one last kiss on his body, he glanced up at him, a question in his eyes. Are you sure? There’s no turning back.
I am. I want this. I want you.
He saw Changmin shudder. Then his dominant unbuttoned Junsu’s jeans, he didn’t tug it down but Junsu flinched automatically. “Sssh,” Changmin whispered, trailing kisses once again, “I won’t hurt you. Trust me.”
“I know, it’s just-,“ Junsu hated the way his body still was reacting like that. They hadn’t done anything more than hugs and kisses so the fact that someone was touching him in an intimate way was triggering a different reaction, even when his brain didn’t conjure up bad memories. “Stupid reflex.”
“There’s nothing stupid about you Junsu.”
He didn’t have an answer for that, not when Changmin said in with so much love, like he really really believed it. Changmin pulled his zipper down, there was already a wet patch on Junsu’s boxers and it was kind of embarrassing for Junsu. He squirmed in his seat, wanting to close his legs but Changmin’s hands didn’t let him. Instead the Second placed his lips on the wet spot and licked.
Junsu cried out. What Changmin wanted to do finally caught up with him and oh shit it never occurred to him. He always thought that a blowjob was something dirty and low and could only be done by a submissive but apparently that wasn’t the case. He moaned again when Changmin sucked his cock through his boxers, fingers twitching in response.
After what felt like eternity, Changmin finally pulled Junsu’s boxers down just enough to free his erection. The cold air hit him and Junsu gasped. His brain still got a little part left that was still functioning at the moment and he briefly felt relieved that his mate didn’t take Junsu’s pants all the way off.
But when Changmin’s lips finally touched his cock, all coherent thoughts flew away. Out of habit Junsu bit his lips to keep himself from crying out. Damn it, it felt so good. Was this what his old pack always felt when he gave them head? No wonder they liked it so much.
Changmin’s tongue began to lick and he sucked harder. Junsu moaned again, a wave of pleasure ran through every cell on his body. This felt beyond amazing. If Changmin’s hand wasn’t pinning him down to keep him from moving around Junsu was sure he would’ve thrust up. He wanted more, he couldn’t get enough.
Junsu, don’t bit your lip, I want to hear you. He heard his mate’s voice through their bond but his brain refused to work. He couldn’t process any thoughts. All he could do was moan and gasp and just-oh god. Changmin had just deep-throated him.
He cried out again. The pleasure was building up and up and every nerve was on edge. His orgasm came swirling out of nowhere, pooling in his gut but Changmin didn’t stop. He kept going. His tongue flicked and licked on Junsu’s sensitive cock. Changmin sucked harder if that was possible, as if he knew that Junsu was close. He could feel his body begin to shake, the pleasure kept mounting up and Changmin took him all the way down, lips touching Junsu’s skin.
Let go.
And Junsu did. White spots burst in his vision as his orgasm crashed through him.
He could hear Changmin moan, felt him swallowing as he gave his cock one final lick before he drew back. Junsu was still panting, his body slumped in exhaustion and it felt like he had just experienced the most wonderful sensation in the world. He had had his fair share of orgasms before, but none of them felt like this.
Somebody was kissing his closed eyes and Junsu hummed in contentment when Changmin’s voice brushed his mind through their bond. Thank you for trusting me, he said. Junsu could sense how happy and sated Changmin was, despite the fact that right now the Second had a very prominent erection.
Don’t worry about it, I’ll think of that alien movie we saw and it’ll go down in a minute.
He grumbled, half agreeing half complaining because that alien movie was a huge turn off. Even his afterglow was gone now when he remembered the way those aliens looked. Changmin laughed and agreed. He then moved to kiss Junsu’s nose before going slightly further to kiss his lips, letting Junsu taste himself. Next time don’t bite your lips, I want to hear all of you.
Junsu opened his eyes. “Next time?”
This time Changmin blinked, confusion written on his face. “Of course, you don’t think that will be the last time I give you a blow job, do you?”
-End of Chapter Fourteen-
Chapter Fifteen: The Brink of Life and Death
Chapter Thirteen: The Regained Trust
Chapter Twelve: The Second Memories
Chapter Eleven: The Calm Before The Storm
Chapter Ten: The Truth
Chapter Nine: The Losing Battle
Chapter Eight: The Memories
Chapter Seven: The First Step
Chapter Six: The Point of No Return
Chapter Five: The Defiance
Chapter Four: The First Hunt
Chapter Three: The Mate
Chapter Two: The New Pack
Chapter One: The Rescue
The Prologue
The Foreword