It has been nearly 8 years since I have written in this. My how time flies. I know that at some point everyone has had someone older tell them that after high school you look up and wonder where the time went and in this case it isnt any different. So much has changed. Eight years is a long time and there is no way that I can sum it up, so we ( Read more... )

Day after day I awaken to find that the beautiful sedation of sleep has forsaken me yet again. I look around and I see the pasty off-white walls and the sun shining through the window and my suspicions are confirmed. I am still the the hell of Arizona and the heat reflects that. I am getting the point of irrationality. I have lost myself and I ( Read more... )

I often find myeself questioning a number of things, but nothing leaves me more baffeled than trying to figure out why i feel the way that i do. It emotions, feelings, that little things that over-takes our better judgement and throws off all logic. I have thought about the way things are going, and i dont know what i expected, but things ( Read more... )

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I am so confused when it comes to my relationships lately. There are times when i miss the exes, because when you love someone that isnt something that can be turned of or placed on the back burner and brought up front when its convienent for you ( Read more... )

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I am a little tired today, but ill manage. I got a little less than 4 hours of sleep and i just finished my morning work out. I have to admit i am already seeing result in my abs. Congrats to me. I had a job interview this morning and now i am a pharmacy tech, at walgreens. Its a pretty straight forward job with opportunity for advancement, ( Read more... )

They say that all dreams have a message behind them, whether it be foreshadowing, provoking thoughts, or bringing out feeling that we have hidden for so long the all mean something. Last night, or this morning rather i had a dream, well more like a nightmare, but i dont know what to make of it. I dreamed that i had been in a fatal car accident, ( Read more... )

What the hell is wrong with me, i dont know what i am doing half the time anymore. I am either bored as hell trying to talk to any and everyone here, just so that i can have some sort of social life, or watching these love stories and trying to create another love equation into my life that really should not fit! Why do i continue to do this over ( Read more... )