Not go back to school, I mean don't get me wrong, furthering my education is a desirable goal, but I'm not on some quest for a piece of paper that will tell others that I went to the right classes and read the books I was told to read. I want to go back to my college days. I want to go back to the University of Missouri-Columbia (Mizzou). I want ( Read more... )

actually...that should be...I now have a favorite quote. See I suck at remembering quotes therefore I was always at a loss when asked for one. But I was reading "Value in the Valley" by Iyanla Vanzant yesterday (My mother gave it to me for Christmas like 6 years ago and this was my first time cracking it open.) and I came across this quote which ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning crying...not unusual...I cry on the regular (much less lately, but still). What bugged me was what made me cry...damn Mother's Day commercials. See, as a single mother, I don't get any of that. I will not awaken on Sunday morning to a breakfast of burned pancakes and runny eggs. There will be no hand drawn card with ( Read more... )

People should not offer help that they really don't want to give...especially when the person they are helping didn't ask for it ( Read more... )

So I'm in this very bleh kind of mood...I'm not sad...per se...a little pissed...but it's been kind of justified so I'm getting over it...I feel disconnected, surreal...just a bit numb. Let me tell you that I really don't like it ( Read more... )

It is said that in dreams, houses and dwellings represent oneself. For the last 2 and a half years I've lived in an apartment that I hated. It was closed in like a cave and the windows hardly ever let in the sun light. It was plain and felt like a cell in many ways. A room that I couldn't escape. There was always some problem, bad plumbing, ( Read more... )

I haven't opened my live journal in like 2 months. I haven't read anyone else's entries in even longer. I've got 3 peoples pages on my favorites and friends list and in to day's I've covered approximately 3 days worth of entries. On the real, damn y'all...when do you find time to work?? But since Hitlerina has banned me from my internet games, ( Read more... )

I've gone around my entire life, afraid of what other people would think of me. I wondered if I was liked. I was afraid that I wouldn't be accepted. I did everything that I had to to fit in. Then one day I looked up and realized that not only did I not fit in, I could no longer see myself. I had manipulated my image: bought the right clothes, ( Read more... )

This will probably be very uninteresting to most people, but I don't care, it's my journal...dammit. I found myself smiling uncontrollably while watching my son play last night. For the first time ever, my son tied a towel around his neck and pretended to be Superman. I know...what's so special about that? Everyone has done something like that ( Read more... )

random header...but I'm really craving a chocolate chip cookie ( Read more... )