A very very long pause...
I haven't opened my live journal in like 2 months. I haven't read anyone else's entries in even longer. I've got 3 peoples pages on my favorites and friends list and in to day's I've covered approximately 3 days worth of entries. On the real, damn y'all...when do you find time to work?? But since Hitlerina has banned me from my internet games, I don't have an excuse anymore. What have I learned in reading those 3 days worth of entries?? That I'm not in any way alone in this world. Most of my frustrations, almost all of my fears and eerily some of my exact thoughts have been poured into the journals of these three women that I'd like to call friends. Unfortunately because I'm hesitant and untrusting I must call them good acquaintances. I've locked myself away again and as the fog clears from my misguided defenses, I realize that I stand to loose more than I would ever gain by remaining in seclusion. I've done it so many times over the years and can you believe it?? I've yet to find a time when I didn't come to the same conclusion. But still, every so often, I look up and here I am again...hidden away in my own head, convinced that no one else will ever understand, like I'm the only muthafucka in the world that has ever had a bad day. Ladies, I apologize. I don't give y'all enough credit. But on a happier note...I'M BACK!!!