Death seems to follow me (Rated Mature)
I really do rate this entry mature because how I have to explain how this blog all started . . .
My boyfriend and I were having sex as a water bottle with ice fell on my head. (Of course it was 4 am in the morning when we were having sex which is close to our normal time of day for sex. midnight to 6am is usually when we have it. You know one good release before you sleep.)
Anyway I was slightly dizzy and extremely tired and needless to say that once the bottle hit the front of my head our "fun time" was over for the night anyway. Tom made sure I was okay so he had me stay up and watch TV for a little awhile as they say you can fall into coma if you sleep with a concession. So finally I was so tired I told him I was okay even with a headache and we went to bed.
When I went to sleep, I had dreamt that night of going into this world similar to the movie "Beetle Juice:" Dead bodies, blue people, flowing around, paper work flying everything, and there was justa strange feeling when I get there. There was this woman who looked very attractive with one reflection, and she looked blue and groutusque. She told me not to tell anyone about this, but most of friends know if I am freaked out about something I want support and I am going to tell.
Ever since that night weird and terrifying stuff has been happening . . .
My cat had a kitten a few weeks ago and my brother's friend found two other kittens. So my cat took them over and she took care of all three cats. There was one of the kitten that seem distance from the other kittens and it didn't play, but it was eating and it seemed fine. I just had a feeling about that kitten that they called bugs, it was a feeling of disappointment.
Anyway last Thursday night, Bugs was doing fine as we were chatting, listening to music and working the Tarot cards. The cat was even mediating with Tom; it was really cute.
We went to bed on Thursday night when I think Bug had jumped off the chair and hit her head on the cabinet, because I found her on Friday morning laying still with her head under the cabinet. I think she had broke her neck as she couldn't move her legs or her head, and she was trembling. I tried all I could to make her comfortable, but it took her two hours to pass away. I felt so hopeless as she was fragile. I just wanted to keep her out of paid. It was so tramatic, and I am still shaken up by the whole situation.
Later on Friday, I had heard more cats crying as I found two more kittens abandoned outside and grandma told me to bring them in. I saw this orange and white one that kept screaming and crying, and I had a bad feeling about that kitten, and I just found out that kitten stopped eating and had died yesterday. Mona my cat took the healthy kitten that I found in, and three kittens are healthy.
I just feel that death keeps following me . . . teasing me, letting me know that it's there.
I know death is there, but death can just go away: no one close to me is going to die any time soon!
I will also be living a long life as well!
My boyfriend and I were having sex as a water bottle with ice fell on my head. (Of course it was 4 am in the morning when we were having sex which is close to our normal time of day for sex. midnight to 6am is usually when we have it. You know one good release before you sleep.)
Anyway I was slightly dizzy and extremely tired and needless to say that once the bottle hit the front of my head our "fun time" was over for the night anyway. Tom made sure I was okay so he had me stay up and watch TV for a little awhile as they say you can fall into coma if you sleep with a concession. So finally I was so tired I told him I was okay even with a headache and we went to bed.
When I went to sleep, I had dreamt that night of going into this world similar to the movie "Beetle Juice:" Dead bodies, blue people, flowing around, paper work flying everything, and there was justa strange feeling when I get there. There was this woman who looked very attractive with one reflection, and she looked blue and groutusque. She told me not to tell anyone about this, but most of friends know if I am freaked out about something I want support and I am going to tell.
Ever since that night weird and terrifying stuff has been happening . . .
My cat had a kitten a few weeks ago and my brother's friend found two other kittens. So my cat took them over and she took care of all three cats. There was one of the kitten that seem distance from the other kittens and it didn't play, but it was eating and it seemed fine. I just had a feeling about that kitten that they called bugs, it was a feeling of disappointment.
Anyway last Thursday night, Bugs was doing fine as we were chatting, listening to music and working the Tarot cards. The cat was even mediating with Tom; it was really cute.
We went to bed on Thursday night when I think Bug had jumped off the chair and hit her head on the cabinet, because I found her on Friday morning laying still with her head under the cabinet. I think she had broke her neck as she couldn't move her legs or her head, and she was trembling. I tried all I could to make her comfortable, but it took her two hours to pass away. I felt so hopeless as she was fragile. I just wanted to keep her out of paid. It was so tramatic, and I am still shaken up by the whole situation.
Later on Friday, I had heard more cats crying as I found two more kittens abandoned outside and grandma told me to bring them in. I saw this orange and white one that kept screaming and crying, and I had a bad feeling about that kitten, and I just found out that kitten stopped eating and had died yesterday. Mona my cat took the healthy kitten that I found in, and three kittens are healthy.
I just feel that death keeps following me . . . teasing me, letting me know that it's there.
I know death is there, but death can just go away: no one close to me is going to die any time soon!
I will also be living a long life as well!