I know I haven't updated in forever, but there's something about 3:30 in the morning that fires up the writing ability in my. I have wondered often, of late, whether or not I will ever be rid of some of the problems associated with my disorder. Although I have grown used to my sometimes unintelligible handwriting and my speech disorder, I don't ( Read more... )

I haven't posted in this journal in forever, so I thought I'd give you all a little love. I don't know what I intend this entry to be just yet, but I have an idea forming in my head. Hang on, it may be a bumpy ride. Lately I've found myself yearning for a companion. Oh, I have companions in my life. I have a friend who I see quite frequently. ( Read more... )

I don't know why I'm doing this. I guess I'll just proceed as usual. I'm rather bummed about not being able to go to Maine with my father this year. We don't have the finances available. Ticks me off really. I always gain so much by escaping from my life for a bit. I love the outdoors and exploring and wildlife and everything about our ( Read more... )

I've never wanted Dommy so baddly in my life as I do right now. Damn it, I miss her so much. Nobody seems to understand why I feel this way but me. If I thought there was even a fragment of hope for getting Joker back, I'd be all over that too, but there isn't. He's gone for good. Trying to find him would be a wild goose chase. Dommy. At ( Read more... )

I'm so fucking horny i can't type. I'm sitting here in my underwear waiting for the second wind. Don't expect this to be a long one, it's almost here. I take it from this experience that caffiene and movies with a lot of sex either don't go well together or should be done more often. Shit! I hate it when my parents come down and ruin my fun. ( Read more... )

Hey all,

I'm taking the night off to do some me-things.  I need to chill and relax, forgetting all about the list of things I should be doing.  So why am I talking to you?  I dunno.  Maybe I just need a medium to ramble at.

I went to the gym earlier.  I should go more often, but I'm sort of nervous.  I don't like showing weakness to anyone and ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder if all the animals I take care of are really harming me. It seems an unbelievable concept when you consider the fact that my babies have saved my life from the prospect of suicide so often in the past. Despite that, I often become horribly aware that I have never forgotten or gotten over the loss of so many creatures I held ( Read more... )

Apparently, I'm a freakin' genious. Sigh. Oh, well. Such is life, I suppose. It's snowing outside. I abhor snow. Never mind the fact that I work tonight. I hate driving in it too. I sleep in your face. Work is groovy. I get to work with the new employee tonight. That ought to be interesting. her name is Tina. She's sixteen. I hope I ( Read more... )

This'll have to be a quicky. Gee, when was the last time you heard that? Anyway, apparently only two people really read this journal. Sigh. I wouldn't be so bad if those two people weren't my brother and sister. Ah, such is life. I haven't talk about school for a while, so I thought I'd hash it all out for ya's. Today I went about getting ( Read more... )

I don't feel like writing anything. The only reason I'm sitting here right now is that I'm horribly bored and my family is sick of me. What else is new, huh? I don't know why I go forward. I don't know why I try to succeed in my life. Everytime I do something goes wrong. Either that or I'm going it alone. You know I've come this far in my ( Read more... )