lol GUESS WHAT.......... its brads birthday! haha im such a fag i find myself thinking about him less and less each day and the fact that our friendship has now completely ended doesnt really bother me anymore. thats a huge step i mean after like 5 years i can finally let go theres better things to do then worry about what other people are doing ( Read more... )

so its 8 in the mornin and tom is awake with me its exciting YAYYYYYY so last night i missed all the fun cuz i passed out it sucked alot so i couldnt really tell you what anyone did but it was fun while i was awake for future reference never let me get like that again .... i say that everytime but this time i mean it i mean i had fun but i dont ( Read more... )

so i had this dream last night that on princeton everymornin there was this dude that looked like bob marley with short hair and he smoked every mornin in his vw van and one mornin i was alone and he was with 2 girls and he asked me to smoke with him and i did n then we started hangin out and he was like 40 and we were in this huge building and we ( Read more... )

yes........... everyone's right its true........... i think

i hate my life

AHHHHHH i hate my life! today is bonnies birthday thats exciting tho..... my bethy is going away for a week! waht am i gonna do! my life is fuckin over..... jay hates me cuz im a bitch wich is exactly waht i was saying in the other journal. what the fuck is my problem. i should just learn to not tell anyone how i feel even if they make me feel im ( Read more... )

i dont understand the point of having an online journal that everyone can read........ if it was really a journal for ur feelings you probly wouldnt want the whole world reading it like i could confess my love to someone or talk shit about someone on this and the whole world would know! whats the point in that? who knows but im gonna talk shit ( Read more... )

so when was the last time iwrote in here? who knows but i do know that absolutly no one will comment! YAYY i got friends. well im sick of everything and everyone i jsut wanna crawl unto a hole and live there for a while. theres been so much drama lately and i feel like its me. amd i really that much of a bitch? i get drunk and tell people shit that ( Read more... )

so lets talk about my "friend" and his g/f! how cute are they! lol i decided when they break up im just gonna tell him everything i mean im sure its not a big shock to him but im gonna actually tell him sober!! wow htats something new for me i dont remember the last time i expressed how i feel about anything while sober! ill give it a try even tho ( Read more... )

so im sure everyone knows what its like to love your best friend well IT SUCKS! especially because he has no idea how much i love him i mean i would say i like him alot but i think its love, seriously. i dont know what to do! the feelings will never be mutual hes told me that but i cant accept it i dont know what to do knowing that i cant have him ( Read more... )