shitty
AHHHHHH i hate my life! today is bonnies birthday thats exciting tho..... my bethy is going away for a week! waht am i gonna do! my life is fuckin over..... jay hates me cuz im a bitch wich is exactly waht i was saying in the other journal. what the fuck is my problem. i should just learn to not tell anyone how i feel even if they make me feel im like only their best friend sometimes. i dont care i could hate comeone and im not gonan tell them it just causes fuckin drama and makes me even worse off then i was before. i should take some lessons from beth. lol jkjk. the only reason i didnt want a boyfriend is because i wanted to spend time with my best friend because i missed him and i didnt wanna ruin anything by having a boyfriend and not having time for my close friends. im not implying anything im just saying i got excited cuz i had my friend back but i guess i spoke too soon it was too good to be true. im not trying to get anyone mad so i probly should stop............... me and joe are friends again! never thought htat day would come. at least i have someone that still calls me to chill when hes got a girlfriend. he doesnt make me feel like im shit to him unless i treat him like shit and he hates me but thats understandable.well i fuckin hate everything so w/e