Sucked sucked sucked sucked sucked. I've had to walk around the parking lot several times so far, and then come back and respond to email/talk to people, so that I was calm enough to do so professionally. My head is pounding, I'm SO ANGRY at myself about the money stuff, and my schedule is just awful for the week and I thought it wasn't and that ( Read more... )

Just applied, and was approved, for Kelsey's loan for this year - $9509. Seriously felt like I was going to faint before hitting submit, and then felt like I was going to throw up after seeing the application was successful. SO. MUCH. MONEY ( Read more... )

Rough week. Started and deleted many many posts here at the start of the week - thought I was losing it, my temper was immediate, I felt shocks in my brain, I felt dizzy and removed and unhappy. Had several bad conversations between Glenn and myself and Kelsey, melted down on my mom, lost it one morning all alone. Realized Tuesday I had run out of ( Read more... )

Really just dont feel right. Tired and achey. Head - well, more pressure than ache, but it's not comfortable. And I can see my footprints. I know that sounds weird, but like - when you look at a black spot on a piece of paper and then look at a white wall, you see the black spot in "negative ( Read more... )

Like the aquarium in Boston.  I mean, it changed a little, and has a cool pool where you can pet stingrays and sharks - LITTLE stingrays and the sharks were very shy but still ... I'm not a fan of ocean based animals apparently, unless it's for sushi...especially the King Roll at a little local restaurant ( Read more... )

Audi passed inspection yesterday ( Read more... )

Starting my 3rd week here, and I feel like I'm finally getting up to speed. Every SINGLE day flies by in a heartbeat, even tho I'm not really DOING anything yet but reports and spreadsheets and recommendations. The past couple of days have included me learning about merchandising and forecasting requirements for new products, price changes, ( Read more... )

Been a while since I've flared, let alone had it last so long.  Neck, shoulders, hands, hips.  Sucks ( Read more... )

I hurt. Like everywhere. Muscles are screaming, despite the fact I'm on a drug given to folks with osteoarthritis and rhumatoid arthritis, to help with the pain. Under my arms, my sides, my hands, all feel like I've been beating with a baseball bat, and the slightest tough hurts like a bruise. My foot is swollen and my toes are constantly cold ( Read more... )