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Rough week. Started and deleted many many posts here at the start of the week - thought I was losing it, my temper was immediate, I felt shocks in my brain, I felt dizzy and removed and unhappy. Had several bad conversations between Glenn and myself and Kelsey, melted down on my mom, lost it one morning all alone. Realized Tuesday I had run out of my anti-depressants on Sunday. Refilled, picked up, and started to feel better already by Weds night.
The only thing that bothers me about all that is how quickly it got really bad. I've not taken my anti-depressant for well over a week before, and then felt that way - but this was literally a matter of 24 hours before I started to notice it (not that I figured it out for another 24...) - and it was really bad. Not sure why my seratonin is low enough that it made itself known that quickly.
Arguments are mainly over money - the fact the refinancing closed Friday night, getting rid of one mortgage, and adding several hundreds to my budget - only to have Kelsey looking at apartments rather than the dorm, and theoretically taking all that money away again. We have had several harsh discussions, informed her she will get the $200 a month we were paying towards her tuition, and she'll have to figure it out, but realistically, everything in Salem (and Peabody) starts at 1000/mo for a 2 bedroom. UGH. We'll see how all this plays out - I'm not refinancing to give myself more money to spend on her.
Lots of stress at work, including another member of my team leaving - I had 2 weeks of quiet when I was fully staffed, now it's back to it. =( Deep breath.
Have the house to myself today, and have spent it doing chores, and then rewarding myself with little geeky things, like a few chapters of the new game (that I think I pre-ordered three years ago???) Bioshock Infinte. It's really nice out, have the windows and doors open, and the dogs are loving it.
Also decided to splurge, spent $224, and got Rosetta Stone to teach myself Dutch. I apparently know more than I thought as I'm flying through it so far. Told mom, and her comment was "that's kind of a waste, everyone speaks English"....I didn't want to tell her that the main reason I'm doing this is that she's been slipping into Dutch on the phone at night more and more. I'd say about 3-4 nights a week, she'll say at least one sentence in Dutch, then realize it and go back to English. I don't want to be an expert, but I want to know enough just in case.
Plus, it's about time I started learning something again. I am going to look into getting an MBA as well, just because it's something i've always wanted to do, and it can't hurt right? =)
Mom, Kelsey and Eddie are coming over tomorrow for a lunch. Should be nice.
DR WHO TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!! And tomorrow, along with Walking Dead, Game of Thrones and Dr. Who tomorrow night too........Yay good tv!!! =)
The only thing that bothers me about all that is how quickly it got really bad. I've not taken my anti-depressant for well over a week before, and then felt that way - but this was literally a matter of 24 hours before I started to notice it (not that I figured it out for another 24...) - and it was really bad. Not sure why my seratonin is low enough that it made itself known that quickly.
Arguments are mainly over money - the fact the refinancing closed Friday night, getting rid of one mortgage, and adding several hundreds to my budget - only to have Kelsey looking at apartments rather than the dorm, and theoretically taking all that money away again. We have had several harsh discussions, informed her she will get the $200 a month we were paying towards her tuition, and she'll have to figure it out, but realistically, everything in Salem (and Peabody) starts at 1000/mo for a 2 bedroom. UGH. We'll see how all this plays out - I'm not refinancing to give myself more money to spend on her.
Lots of stress at work, including another member of my team leaving - I had 2 weeks of quiet when I was fully staffed, now it's back to it. =( Deep breath.
Have the house to myself today, and have spent it doing chores, and then rewarding myself with little geeky things, like a few chapters of the new game (that I think I pre-ordered three years ago???) Bioshock Infinte. It's really nice out, have the windows and doors open, and the dogs are loving it.
Also decided to splurge, spent $224, and got Rosetta Stone to teach myself Dutch. I apparently know more than I thought as I'm flying through it so far. Told mom, and her comment was "that's kind of a waste, everyone speaks English"....I didn't want to tell her that the main reason I'm doing this is that she's been slipping into Dutch on the phone at night more and more. I'd say about 3-4 nights a week, she'll say at least one sentence in Dutch, then realize it and go back to English. I don't want to be an expert, but I want to know enough just in case.
Plus, it's about time I started learning something again. I am going to look into getting an MBA as well, just because it's something i've always wanted to do, and it can't hurt right? =)
Mom, Kelsey and Eddie are coming over tomorrow for a lunch. Should be nice.
DR WHO TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!! And tomorrow, along with Walking Dead, Game of Thrones and Dr. Who tomorrow night too........Yay good tv!!! =)