ok so it's 2 and i JUST woke up! this seems to be the normal lately. i went bowling last night like i do almost every night. but this time Mikal didn't go. he went to the club with Joshua and Nick. no big deal cuz i still went out with HIS friends! lol. today is my first day off in 9 days! its about time! im so tired and just irritated and i just ( Read more... )

wow its been a long time since i've been on here! i have most def been working a lot!i have to work 2morrow too! yeah so i was right about the whole nick thing. . . things kind of fell through with that. he started talking to me again the other day but i don't think thats a very good idea. don't get me wrong ill still be friends with him but thats ( Read more... )

i seriously hate this! why do i always end up getting myself hurt? it hasn't happend yet but i've had the feeling since like day 2 that it is going to. i seriously want things to work out with nick but i don't see it happening. its like we see eachother whenever we see eachother and we hardly talk and i have so many things i want and need to say to ( Read more... )

i am most def really sick. . . . i feel like i am going to die. at first i thought it was all just in my head because i said i wasn't feeling that good and sheena told me nick had been really sick but then today i was like blah! i wanted to die! i still feel like crap and i don't want to go to school 2morrow but i have to go and then i have to work ( Read more... )

i just got home from visiting sheena n nick. so much fun. lol but fer real though. . sheena n justin left to go get justin 2 tattoos and me n nick chilled up there for an hour and a half maybe more. . . lol. i dunno we talked but like not like non-stop. i dunno i enjoyed it though. he was like bored out of his mind. i kind of was too. but we made ( Read more... )

so i was like extremely bored last night and decided that i was gonna write a really long journal entry as soon as i started to write and all of a sudden i THOUGHT nick was joking about coming over but no he was serious. . . lol not that i mind. we took forever to get ready just like always then he finally came over. we sat in his car for like ( Read more... )

today was solo n ensemble. . . i messed up really bad! the first song was AWSOME! we played damn near perfect. . . then the second song. . . yeah i messed up and jon stoped and i thought we were so done but she let us start over and i mixed up a few notes but kept going and then we were done. as the judge was talking to us i almost passed out. ( Read more... )

wow. . . i never thought it would happen. . . . chris must supposed to be a dad at an early age. ive heard form one of his friends he got some girl pregnant. i kinda fell bad for him but maybe now he wont threaten to kill himself if i don't talk to him claiming "you killed my kid and left me! i have nothing left to live for. . . " i kind of felt ( Read more... )

the last couple of days have been pretty good i guess. . . i got to see Nick the other day. nothing special just talked to him for a few minutes. then yesterday we were gonna hang out but he was going to dodgeball so we decided we would hang out after. well then he got home late and i was not happy. . . he finally sent me a message tellin me he was ( Read more... )

i stayed the night with sheena at mark's last night. it has sorta became and every weekend thing. but its cool we have fun. sheena is in the shower right now and im kinda bored. we were supposed to go to justin's show tonight but i doubt it seeing as how we have no way out there ( Read more... )