I make decisions and plans so often. I never stick to them. I chicken out, I tire out, I lose heart somewhere in the middle- sometimes before the middle even begins. Grades, lacrosse, friendships, relationships, novels, clubs- I come up with so many ideas and nothing ever happens because I never, ever follow through.

I came up with something last ( Read more... )

 Suffice it to say I am content ( Read more... )

(so that's a new song for this week. "The Widow", by The Mars Volta.)

I hate it when DeviantART goes into read-only mode. It tends to happen right when I click Submit. Damned website. And even with all their maintenance the server is still shit.
Anyway.
So Jamie has decided he will replace me. And quickly.
I've decided to clean my room.
Lyle has decided ( Read more... )

Some stuff ( Read more... )

Okay  I really like my new layout. It's not as dark as my others, but I like the books  and actually lately my mood's been pretty white anyway, since I've been in between the good and bad sides of gray ( Read more... )

Facts:

*I got grounded again. This time because I didn't want to go to church, so my mother took the key.
*Today, the only day that I chose to simply go about my chores without even thinking about the computer or not being on it, my mother's door happened to be left ajar. Intention or a lapse in bad luck?
*The Darkroom on Friday happened.
*I now have a ( Read more... )

 little things sometimes make big things happen to you ( Read more... )

Ha. I feel like a hobo. I neglected to eat today and so now, at 5h30, I am sitting here eating Hamburger Helper Microwave Singles (cheesy beef taco flavored) that I boiled half in the bathroom with water from the tub and half in a pot because tub water took too long, and I burned my fingertips on the steam.

My bedroom smells like dirty vagina ( Read more... )