well hello there agian depression, its been awhile.
and hello to you folks out there in LJland.

so the search for a job has been completely and utterly FRUITLESS.
and the ONLY place that's hiring is the ONLY place i don't wanna work.
fucking Captain's Galley.
my friend works there and he fucking hates it. so i deff don't wanna work there.

and i know i ( Read more... )

so i got my letter today and I didn't get into
the art center college of design.

i love how everyone keeps telling me its not the
end of the world.
i understand that, it just...hurts.
i wanted it so badly.

bummer.

Title: Set Fire To The Thousandth Bar
Author: leonidaslion 
Pairing: Evil!Sam/Dean
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Dean doesn't remember much, but he knows who he's running from ...
Warning:dub/non-con

File Type:MP3
Size: 64.4MB
Length:1h10m20s

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idk maybe its just one of those days.
i got my period today, which i hate.
it makes me want to vomit.
today is just a low day for me.
i don't feel good.

i'm just sitting here wondering what the fuck
i'm trying to do with my pathetic life.
i mean who am i kidding? that school isn't gonna
accept me, especially not on a scholarship.and then
what am i gonna do ( Read more... )

at least, it feels that way.
i complain a lot. this i know to be very true.

i hate waking up everyday to so much commotion.
living in this house, now with so many people, i
keep feeling like i have to suppress myself.
and like its not even really living with my sister
it just, somebody is ALWAYS home.
i miss waking up to an empty house
knowing that i had ( Read more... )

i know its probably not right to hate my sister, but that's how i've been feeling lately.
well more so jealous of her. i'm always jealous of her. i've always BEEN jealous of her.

( yes, i am pathetic and psychotic... )

 Kripke you've floored me again! they CAN'T split up.
what happened to this season being about bringing the boys back together?
i love cas "I'M GONNA GO FIND GOD!" hahahaha. and "god is not a flatbread"
and how convenient is it that dean's amulet is God GPS?
and cutting off War's finger? better than lord of the rings.
i bet you that ring is gonna play ( Read more... )