jobless depression, it hurts.
well hello there agian depression, its been awhile.
and hello to you folks out there in LJland.
so the search for a job has been completely and utterly FRUITLESS.
and the ONLY place that's hiring is the ONLY place i don't wanna work.
fucking Captain's Galley.
my friend works there and he fucking hates it. so i deff don't wanna work there.
and i know i know, BEGGARS CAN'T BE CHOOSERS.
but seeriously i want to go to work and be happy, not putting on a fake smile for the world,
i wanna enjoy my job.
the whole job thing is just utterly depressing, and i hate it.
i have no money for anything. right now, all i have in my bank account is 92 cents.
92 fucking cents.
>_<
i just want a job.
i want a reason to get up in the morning.
can anybody find me somebody to love?
another reason i'm depressed.
i want someone to wake up next to in the morning.
and where as i can find no one
my friend, Lisa not only has a boyfriend,
but is also cheating on him with any other guy that gives her the time of day.
so i say, Why don't you just break up with him?
she says, Because I love him.
to which i reply, You can't cheat on him and love him, it doesn't work that way.
she then said, Yes you can, you just don't understand.
to which my initial thought is basically you obviously don't love him enough to stop.
and of course i don't understand, i wouldn't fucking know anything,
because i've never been in a relationship.
so in other words i have nothing going for me at the moment.
the only highlight of my life as always, is Supernatural.
and even that's starting to turn to shit.
i don't really mean that, im just confused.
>_<