haven't done a real post in a while...

[pattyposh]

at least, it feels that way.
i complain a lot. this i know to be very true.

i hate waking up everyday to so much commotion.
living in this house, now with so many people, i
keep feeling like i have to suppress myself.
and like its not even really living with my sister
it just, somebody is ALWAYS home.
i miss waking up to an empty house
knowing that i had the freedom to
actually do what i wanted and get things done.
its almost suffocating.

i feel like i can't even live while they're
in the house. its a struggle to get out of bed each morning.
and i don't even know why it bothers me so much,
or why i feel like i can't DO ANYTHING around them.

i just know that if they all left, i could get so much more done.
i could be productive.
i could be useful.
i could be happy.