Hello journal, how I have missed you.

You'd think that I'd update a lot more since I got my teeny laptop and it's so easy to use it. But alas.

All I got to say is that life's going alright. I'll have to find a job soon before I go absolutely insane in this house. It's already starting. Hell, it started years ago. I recently read earlier entries and ( Read more... )

You just have to learn to just suppress things and to not care.

The parents are much better than they used to be. A lot of their time is taken up with the business so the little time we get with them should be spent smiling. They haven't told me to cook dinner or wash dishes or clean the house or take out the trash lately. Therefore I have no ( Read more... )

So Gio and Matt are thinking about separating temporarily. I can't even imagine how my parents are going to react. We both had the same thought: it would be nice if we had parents that were supportive instead of judgmental.

I'm just indifferent about the parents. It feels so terrible to just not care. I don't care about my mom's business and the ( Read more... )

I've been studying my ass off for my Spanish class and I completely forgot we're going to have a stupid map on there too. Ay dios mio ( Read more... )

I haven't been updating truthfully lately because I have a journal I actually write into the old fashioned way. It's really hot in my room but the last time I turned on my fan I got sick. Yikes that doesn't sound too good...

Lots has been going on but it's 1 am and I don't really feel like going over everything. I went to LA for a concert and that ( Read more... )

I'm not feeling to well today. I wasn't feeling too well yesterday either, and that's when it all started.

I don't really like Emily anymore. In all honesty, I'm pretty bored with her now. She's a very different person from the girl I met not even a year ago. Back then she was dedicated, motivated, super smart, super sweet, and calm and collected. ( Read more... )

It was pretty adorable actually. There were these little girls (14 and 10 I think?) that totally adored lucy and me and they wanted to hang with us all night. It was pretty cute!

I convinced her to major in anthropology when it's college time. She'll forget about it but it was awesome to see her eyes light up =)

They want to go on hikes with us so, ( Read more... )

I just............I don't know. This sucks so hard. Once again, I have a big lump in my throat caused by all the frustration.

What frustrates me is that I just......... it just seems like a lost cause. No matter what I do, no matter what I say, no matter how much I want things to change, everything's going to stay the same. No matter how many times ( Read more... )