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tsot feelings

obsessionality Jan 06, 2014 13:58

tsot feels under the cut - spoilers for S03E02

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i don't even know anymore, work, sherlock season3, i think i broke my brain, stuff, what is my life, true love, love?, this isn't a good sign, exaustion, nightmares, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangst, feeling old, emotional instability, fucking fuckity fuckery

so today was actually a really decent day until I called my mum

obsessionality Nov 23, 2013 02:10

this always fucking happens. its like the universe doesn't want me to be happy. i don't fucking understand it ( Read more... )

i don't even know anymore, excessive caps warning!, my life is a soap opera, this isn't a good sign, sucky rl is sucky, insane insanity, i'm really upset and don't know why, i hate my family, stress and terror, family! thou art my bane, what is my life, i'm a bitch in rl, nightmares, exaustion, rant, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangst, luck wishing necessary, feeling old, emotional instability, crazy bitch warning, fucking fuckity fuckery

Today was supposed to be a day for good news.

obsessionality Oct 03, 2013 19:43

Good things are happening to me. I'm excited, and I'm happy, and bad stuff is looming in the background but I've actually got something I'm looking forward to ( Read more... )

i don't even know anymore, stress, my life is a soap opera, life lessons, this isn't a good sign, exaustion, nightmares, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangst, rl, luck wishing necessary, feeling old, emotional instability, sucky rl is sucky

I've got what my mum had. Not surprising but I'm so ANGRY. I feel the sickness coming on. I've started the meds pre-emptively, before any sane doctor would have prescribed them, so my chances of recovery are high.

But I'm a hot, weeping mess. I'm all over the place. I got hungry before dinner and had a snack which was the size if a regular dinner. ( Read more... )

i don't even know anymore, subconscious messages, my life is a soap opera, sucky rl is sucky, i'll miss everyone, i'm really upset and don't know why, stress and terror, i think i broke my brain, what is my life, nightmares, exaustion, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangst, feeling old, luck wishing necessary, emotional instability, rl, crazy bitch warning

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obsessionality Sep 27, 2013 14:54

My mum's sick now. She threw up twice on. The way home from picking up my Dad at the airport. She can't handle the stress. She's never been able to. I love her to pieces. I don't think I love anyone more than my mum, in this world. But I hate her inability to handle stress. It activates her gastric problem and then she gets migraines and tensions ( Read more... )

stress, my life is a soap opera, life lessons, sucky rl is sucky, insane insanity, stress and terror, family! thou art my bane, what is my life, nightmares, exaustion, rant, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangst, feeling old, luck wishing necessary, emotional instability, rl, crazy bitch warning, fucking fuckity fuckery

So I've officially been home for 20 days.

obsessionality Jul 01, 2013 23:02

It's been cool, I guess ( Read more... )

subconscious messages, life lessons, soap-box time, i'll miss everyone, i'm really upset and don't know why, stuff, stress and terror, i think i broke my brain, what is my life, nightmares, exaustion, my odd gender identity, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangst, feeling old, luck wishing necessary, emotional instability, rl

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obsessionality Apr 08, 2013 10:31

So I had an entirely disturbing dream in which I was seduced, abducted, raped, experimented on, and impregnated to eventually give birth two twins in captivity, before being rescued by the two men I'd made friends with in the facility. I was reunited with my mother, no one blamed me for anything, and I went into a deep panic because I didn't know ( Read more... )

i'm really upset and don't know why, subconscious messages, stress and terror, this isn't a good sign, nightmares, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangst, rl, luck wishing necessary, fucking fuckity fuckery

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currently torn between exhaustion and vicious triumph

obsessionality Feb 04, 2013 23:10

more housemate shit. won't bore you with it. i'm bored with it. some discussion on facebook on a shared message, that too. someone got a little bitchy. i'm proud to say i bitchslapped them the FUCK into the ground. she didn't apologise but she said she was just messing with me and she should have made it more clear. she responded really quickly ( Read more... )

my life is a soap opera, life lessons, damnyouwork, this isn't a good sign, sucky rl is sucky, i'm really upset and don't know why, overambition, stress and terror, what is my life, i'm a bitch in rl, nightmares, exaustion, rant, deadlines, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangst, luck wishing necessary, feeling old, emotional instability, rl, crazy bitch warning, fucking fuckity fuckery

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so, I apparently wrote this last night.

obsessionality Jan 31, 2013 13:45

I don't remember writing it. I remember waking up at five in the morning and being at my table, but I don't remember writing this. I cleaned up some mistakes and spelling errors, but I haven't done anything major to it. Considering that it's black-out writing, I'm fairly impressed with myself.

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i don't even know anymore, subconscious messages, john/sherlock, i think i broke my brain, stuff, fanfiction, this isn't a good sign, exaustion, nightmares, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangst, rl, emotional instability, luck wishing necessary, feeling old

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obsessionality Jan 27, 2013 23:13

Right. So I thought I'd feel okay after that meme, but apparently not. I think I'm going to be sick, I'm so upset ( Read more... )

i don't even know anymore, my life is a soap opera, this isn't a good sign, insane insanity, work, stuff, stress and terror, what is my life, nightmares, exaustion, rant, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangst, feeling old, expensive unis are expensively expensive, luck wishing necessary, emotional instability, rl, crazy bitch warning, fucking fuckity fuckery