Last week as part of my vacation I went to Chinatown to enjoy their New Years parade.  Although it's touted as the second (or first?) biggest parade outside of China I found it pretty underwhelming.  I guess parades aren't really exciting once you reach the age where they are no longer handing candy to you, but in large part I found the other ( Read more... )

I hate asking people for help. Even when they fully expect you to. I hate being an imposition on people; I just want to be the easy person, someone who is easy to hang-out with--not work. Or when you've asked, they agree, and then disappoint. And lastly, what if you have presumed too much on the relationship and they say no?

I just find it really ( Read more... )

I've been ignoring LJ for a few months now for multiple reasons--a need to get off the internet and explore my new life back here in the states, shame that I couldn't get a job, a lack of interesting happenings to write about. . . the list could go on forever.  But mostly shame, I suppose.  I feel like I did everything that people told me I was ( Read more... )

hisashiburi minna-san!!

When I'm at my parent's house taking time to keep my blog (and therefore, all of you) updated just isn't very important.  Mostly because I do very little of interest and getting internet access is a pain in the butt.

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--SO COLD.  I hate being cold.  If I can possibly figure out how to do it, I'm moving somewhere without winter next time.--

So much has happened and yet not very much at all has happened, but in my brain....things are happening.  You've been around for most of the story, heard me waver back and forth between going and staying and going and staying ( Read more... )

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I'M NOT READY!!!!  This week kind of just jumped out at me.  Suddenly, it was here!  And tomorrow is the crazy travel day and I'm really worried about not being able to find a reasonable priced bed Wednesday night.  Because the last couple of times I've tried to get a hotel last minute it hasn't gone well...at all.  Well, I'll do what I always do ( Read more... )

This is me feeling very discouraged about the future.  I'm tired of sending resumes and getting no response (positive OR negative).  I know what I really, really want and the world isn't exactly working with me on it.  So, I'm coming up with alternative plans.  But they're all kind of crazy.  Well, I'm sure I'll end up with something, but I really ( Read more... )

"[insert seemingly life affirming epiphany here] is what I'm going to do."  I think this, tell myself this, tell someone else this.  And then days later my idea, my PLAN, is challenged by some new whim.  I feel like I am floundering.  Grasping, but never grabbing.  Flailing helplessly.  And drowning.

Being in Taiwan has helped me grow in ways I ( Read more... )