Whine whine whine. Tired. Stuff to do, not doing it. Worried for no reason, I mean I should not be worried about it. Not studying for ASL, not teaching myself the next chapter. Stupid, stupid ( Read more... )

Pros to taking next semester off ( Read more... )

Four years ago now, I was in a day program at Bournewood Hospital. I had overdosed on Tylenol PM, called 911 for myself. I was at Mt. Auburn for a few days, the doctors wanted me to go to a mental hospital for a couple weeks, overnight stay, but my parents wanted me home. So I was home for a weekend, then at Bournewood Monday through Friday, 9am ( Read more... )

I was kidnapped by PETA. They were stealing ice cream from a large convenience store. They killed two people. Cyrus got the police and everyone was arrested.

I have not slept well for the past week. I wake up during the night, every night. My legs feel restless and sometimes one or both of my arms. I can't seem to wear myself out enough to sleep the night through. I feel bad because sometimes I wake up Duk. I'm not sure what to do to fall back asleep. I don't want to get up because I'm afraid I'll ( Read more... )

If I had a way to get there, if I had the guts to learn how to get into a show without a ticket, I would be in NYC, at the Bowery Ballroom on February 1st. But I don't, and I don't, so I'm not going to be there. I need an Inferno fix. Listening to them on my computer just annoys me, wish I had my stereo and turntable, vinyl would be better, but ( Read more... )

I am going crazy again. I need stability. Where is Duk? I cannot wait to see him again ( Read more... )

Really creeped out and rather disturbed right now ( Read more... )

I miss Duk. I missed him this weekend and then I got to see him again yesterday, and now I miss him more. We had a very good goodbye kiss, and then there was that moment of "Bye, take care", and we turn away 'cause watching someone leave sucks. Looking back at someone who has turned away. If my car doesn't run by New Years, I hope he can come ( Read more... )

Time for summary of life. Car stuff is progressing, slowly, but it is. Money is the only problem, I really want to use my interest money from my Maine bank account to just get the car running, but that money is supposed to be for school and I'm going to need it next summer. Also need to go to Maine myself to even get that money. Maybe over ( Read more... )