I need a new lj theme. The current one with its "construction" theme doesn't apply anymore. At least, it's not the bulk of my thoughts like it used to be. I guess that shows that I have changed. It's hard to tell sometimes, especially when you have a memory like mine. Stuff just gets skewed. Add to that the fact that my brain likes to emphasize ( Read more... )

If you can't say anything nice ( Read more... )

My horoscope for today:
Why talk about something when you can draw a picture? Art replaces language, or at least supplements it when words alone can't say enough. At last you have an outlet that your imagination so desperately needed. When you let all the fantastical beasts out of their cages, strange and wonderful things may happen. You're on your ( Read more... )

It's 6:12 pm and I'm still in my pajamas. This weekend is going down the toilet. And I don't care all that much, really. I woke up when my dad called at 12 pm and asked if I knew what time it was. I did. Then fell back asleep. Woke up around 2:30 pm. Read some lj and updated my interests. I think I can go pick up my dad's cell phone. Maybe I can ( Read more... )

Again, an inexplicable feeling. I felt sort of like everyone was coming at me from all sides today; not that I mind it, but I was having a hard time keeping up. And I just wanted to be able to focus, but couldn't. There's so much I should be doing, but I'm not doing it. Stuff for work, the divorce, my own personal well-being. And my place is once ( Read more... )

Mixed bag of feelings today. And a ton of uncompleted work for tomorrow. The predominant one is sadness with just a little smidgen of hope breaking through ( Read more... )

...for a very important date...

...with the rest of the essays in my backpack. Why, oh why, am I still awake? I might as well just stay up now.

Mom's coming over later and the place is a mess, too.

Bleh :P

Not sure what is wrong with me. I should be "up," but nothing is taking away this feeling I have lately...the past week or week and a half I've had this antsy, angsty, need to cry out of frustration feeling. There was only one thing that briefly lifted that cloud away. But just briefly. I miss someone, but shouldn't ( Read more... )

It's Saturday night and I am sitting here by myself. Joy. I did have some sort of invite, but the person who did the inviting hasn't gotten back to me, so I guess it's off ( Read more... )

Arrgh! I just got off the phone with someone from the court. I called there earlier to see if "service had been obtained" on my divorce case. But apparently, it hasn't, because apparently, I had to tell them to do something in writing. The woman asked where my ex lives and I told her in the Netherlands. She advised me to see a lawyer. Wonderful ( Read more... )