sputtering and fuming
If you can't say anything nice...
*sigh* I feel just crappy again. Got online, friends started talking to me, but I felt progressively worse. Nothing is "right" right now. My brain is fucking with me again; I wish it would just stop.
I wasted hours this morning/afternoon picking out a digital camera, and perusing other gadgets. I should get my camera this Wednesday, but I feel bad for not working on the house more.
Watched I <3 Huckabees earlier. It kept my interest, but otherwise, I thought: meh. Could just be my general poor mood right now though.
The thing is, I don't understand why. The only thing I can think of that triggered this, I really don't want to think triggered this. Because if so, I'm either stupid, or psycho, or both. I'm so confused, and wondering if I am sabotaging myself, yet again, under the guise of healing.
This is such trivial shit to be obsessing about. Again, please show me where the "off" switch is. I will gladly press down, hard.
:(
*sigh* I feel just crappy again. Got online, friends started talking to me, but I felt progressively worse. Nothing is "right" right now. My brain is fucking with me again; I wish it would just stop.
I wasted hours this morning/afternoon picking out a digital camera, and perusing other gadgets. I should get my camera this Wednesday, but I feel bad for not working on the house more.
Watched I <3 Huckabees earlier. It kept my interest, but otherwise, I thought: meh. Could just be my general poor mood right now though.
The thing is, I don't understand why. The only thing I can think of that triggered this, I really don't want to think triggered this. Because if so, I'm either stupid, or psycho, or both. I'm so confused, and wondering if I am sabotaging myself, yet again, under the guise of healing.
This is such trivial shit to be obsessing about. Again, please show me where the "off" switch is. I will gladly press down, hard.
:(