Feeling down tonight....though I suppose that's almost every night. I think it's part hormones, part depression, part reality.

I just winced at the word "reality." Guess it verified that the pain is real.

Had a job interview today. Fourth Second one since I moved here. I blew one off and didn't go a few weeks back, and one the week before ( Read more... )

My mother has always insisted that I need to go to therapy. More and more though I am realizing that a great deal of my need for therapy is a result of her denial of needing therapy for herself. Since deciding to sell the house and move, my mother has been nothing but neurotic, psychotic, and ANNOYING. Everything must be done exactly when SHE ( Read more... )

So, in less than a month...my car has had $1,000 worth of damage to it. Can I mention that I've only had it for a year and month? Getting really sick of this crap, really fast. And it's not like I'm even doing anything wrong while I'm driving. Other people have caused the damage. The only thing I can figure is that I'm creating tons of ( Read more... )

I was going to continue my entry from before which was entitled part one...but for some reason I feel I would rather softly cry myself to sleep. Blast you depression and exhaustion. You keep me from writing.

There is so much I should be writing in here about. I just can't seem to do it. Every time I think about taking the time to type something out I lose all motivation to do it. So much has happened in the past few weeks and none of it has made it to the page. It needs to. My depression has reached an all new severe level. I can't really gage if ( Read more... )