Mom said she wasn't moving out of VA Beach. I didn't trust her... aaaaaaand like I thought she's backing out of that statement. Plus she made her only friends angry at her... she can't keep using Adderall or lack thereof as an excuse with everyone. One day she will learn what she does to people doesn't get forgotten if she pretends it doesn't ( Read more... )

My mom is looking at places with one bathroom... I don't want to share a bathroom with her. I see the disaster already... I just want to go to the independent living facility. It can't be worse... I think.

I have the gastroenterologist today. That also means I take a Lyft again. I hate taking Lyft. I don't like strangers driving me around. But it's my only way to get to appointments.

Mom's getting the realtor over again... I need a place to go, dang it. :/ I don't want to move with my mom. I know she has chronic pain so she'll try and get me to do all ( Read more... )

Mom has tons of plants crowding the front porch and the back balcony and they are all in the house too. That's inviting bugs in... and to be frank I wouldn't be surprised if the condo association hates it. They are literally out for her for not paying bills or keeping the condo nice outside. And I'm sure they'll do everything they can to screw her ( Read more... )

I went to the ER yesterday due to stomach pain. I got put on a medicine for stomach spasms and acid. The swelling is going down a bit too finally.

My bf really loves Legos so now I want to build blocks. X3 I got 2 boxes of Hello Kitty blocks (not made by Lego) from his mom. They are an ice cream shop and a truck. I haven't gotten room to display ( Read more... )

I am awake again. It is a little past 3:30 AM. My boyfriend left just a few minutes ago. The reality of feeling unsafe returns. The fight or flight. Even when mom is on her best behavior... I know her ugly side will come again. And I know the past that I try to stuff away all very well. I want desperately to keep it in the box. Kinda like in that ( Read more... )

I live with my mom.  I do not get along with her at all.  I'm on the waiting list for independent living. That's gonna be weird with a roommate that I will not know sharing a kitchen and maybe bathroom depending on the room set up.  I also will need to go to dumb groups... I feel like, yes, there is some mental healing I need to do. Like, I have ( Read more... )