Freaking gnats in my room...
Mom has tons of plants crowding the front porch and the back balcony and they are all in the house too. That's inviting bugs in... and to be frank I wouldn't be surprised if the condo association hates it. They are literally out for her for not paying bills or keeping the condo nice outside. And I'm sure they'll do everything they can to screw her over. Which will perhaps screw me over too. I don't have a place to abandon ship to....
Anyways... I spent a few days at my boyfriend's. Their 4th of July was on the third. So, yeah... I am stuck at the condo now all claustrophile in my room...
I sincerely hate my mother... I get tricked into thinking things could get better sometimes. I have some non-dramatic interaction with her every blue moon and think maybe once I move out we can patch stuff she's oblivious to up... I don't even tell her that she causes so much suffering cause she is just gonna try and justify her actions. No point in arguing with a narcissist.
I really am tired and should sleep... can I even get sleep though...? Cause being at the condo is so unnerving I can be tired as heck and worry instead of sleep sometimes.