Fucking worst day I've had since all this started. Thoughts so dark I can hardly find my way through stuff. Laid out ideas to pursue the darkness I've thought of pursuing before. How to get started, how to disappear, what I will do to keep 'safe,' how I will maintain contact with the only people I plan to have contact with. Sure, I suppose it will ( Read more... )

Is it wrong to expect someone to let you know what's going on? To keep you appraised of the small things? Is a message, just brief, too much to expect when someone chooses to skip out on the normal things of the day? I dunno, I'm just fucking tired of feeling like I'm not worth the effort to keep in the loop. I've gotten tired of reaching out to ( Read more... )

I don't know if I can hold out any longer. I feel like the stain on the bottom of Life's shoe, ground into the dirt endlessly for some twisted amusement of the cosmos. I haven't really done a summary of what's going on in my life recently, so here goes ( Read more... )

I can't figure out what the reason to continue on is. For others to feel satisfied in my existence? To be another mouse in a wheel running endlessly for the benefit of another? To make some mark on the plague that is humanity? WE ARE A FUCKING DISEASE. We consume endlessly, without regard for the world or resources around us. We use, abuse, and ( Read more... )

Well, sporadic glimpses into the life of a shattered soul are quite amusing. Used to post in this alot. Not so much anymore ( Read more... )

52 poems. Man. Pathetic when I look back on it. Ah well. Such is life.

Untitled ( Read more... )

Alright! So I went down to Oregon to visit a friend of mine from the club recently. Ended up being just what the doctor ordered ( Read more... )

You ever wonder why friends act the way they do ( Read more... )

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