at church, another mother might be understanding. instead this woman had the nerve to come into the crying room and complain that sammy was disturbing them by rocking against the wall. she came in and said "you can here that in the church you know" with her nose held high in the air. God help her if her child has special needs...

I mean really little. Baby ... newborn really ( Read more... )

Ok so I decided bitching about it isn't really doing crap ( Read more... )

talking with sam today ( Read more... )

Me - sammy you are the light of my life you know that?
Sam - "yup"....(long pause)...."it's too cold" (blows his breath to warm me up)
even longer pause then randomly "nice kisses mom."

*eye roll


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i feel stalked ( Read more... )

today was a good day.sammy nate my mom and I went to lunch with my dad. we met him at work and ate outside. sammy loved the boats and the motorcycle. He is really finally starting to talk now. real words and sentences that make sense thank god I love that kid he asked me to cuddle today for the first time ever in his life. kisses hugs and cuddles ( Read more... )

Dan made a great point. I expect sammy to be "normal" so when the autism is in my face it makes me sad. But for sam autism is his "normal" and that needs to be ok. I have to stop trying to fix him and just start accepting him. It's hard. he was supposed to be my normal one LOL. way too much pressure. He is normal, normal for sammy whatever that ( Read more... )

its hard to believe how quickly things change in times of chaos. I cant complain really ( Read more... )