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its hard to believe how quickly things change in times of chaos. I cant complain really.
sammy is doing pretty well. he is starting to talk more but he still has major violent outbursts. he stims about 75% of the day if I dont force myself into his world. and even then sometimes that isnt enough. he starts school in a few weekshopefully he will get the help he needs.
in one short year I have watched the little boy i thought i had slowly slip just beyond my reach. I am fighting for him but all the fight in the world isn't going to do jack if he doesnt want to fight too.
nathaniel is my sanity these days. so sweet and happy. but aside from a few little things sammy seemed normal at 9 months too. I just dont understand.
but I thank god for those moments... the few and far between
like last night sam asked "my heart in there?" while pointing to my chest. he meant to say "your heart " Im sure but none the less...the moment was amazing. I just wish he could tell me he loves me...i tell him and he ssays "hanksss mum"(thanks mom)
sammy is doing pretty well. he is starting to talk more but he still has major violent outbursts. he stims about 75% of the day if I dont force myself into his world. and even then sometimes that isnt enough. he starts school in a few weekshopefully he will get the help he needs.
in one short year I have watched the little boy i thought i had slowly slip just beyond my reach. I am fighting for him but all the fight in the world isn't going to do jack if he doesnt want to fight too.
nathaniel is my sanity these days. so sweet and happy. but aside from a few little things sammy seemed normal at 9 months too. I just dont understand.
but I thank god for those moments... the few and far between
like last night sam asked "my heart in there?" while pointing to my chest. he meant to say "your heart " Im sure but none the less...the moment was amazing. I just wish he could tell me he loves me...i tell him and he ssays "hanksss mum"(thanks mom)