I was trying to write this long, convoluted entry that to my high eyes would have been reminiscent of the beginning of Manhattan. That, unfortunately --or, rather, fortunately for you -- did not materialise ( Read more... )

Sometimes, we all make poor decisions. I just made my biggest mistake of the year since the 12th. Over two weeks without a major mistake? And I'm still flogging myself over the damned decision, which, in many circles was not even a mistake?

I don't know. I simply worry excessively. My eyelids are heavy, my head is spinning, 'tis time to slumber

I'm sitting at my sister's, typing away incessantly. I am high, again. I am, again, not sure I can handle life sober. I'm wearing clothes I used to wear when I was 18/19. I hadn't really fit into them since I was 20/21. Now, here I am, 24, in old clothes ( Read more... )

1. If you had a choice of taking away a particularly painful year from your own past life which may have set you back emotionally, or adding a year to your life in which you don't know what would happen, which would you choose?OH. Well. I can tell by this that the questions will be hard hitting and, should I actually think about them and attempt to ( Read more... )

Someone's in the kitchen...my sister, because it's her house. Strange, no ( Read more... )

so, the song Lola is haunting me. I've spent the last couple of days in front of this computer. it's frightening. I'm trying to remember if I did this tuesday.. . I think I did. I know monday I actually got out, but was also online. even though becky kept yellin' at me to not be! gr. speaking of Becky. . .
( Weird-ass conversation with Becky! )