so its my birthday. come a long way from last year. just thought i'd inform the masses.

i hate that i have to say goodbye; there was no choice. he made the choice for me, and actually i still feel there was no closure. he was the one who wanted to break up, he was the one who didn't want to talk about it, he was the one who didn't want to hang out anymore, he was the one who didn't want to be friends, and now he's the one who doesn' ( Read more... )

I AM: someone who just wants to be happy
I WANT: to get out of my depression
I HAVE: a problem with trusting those close to me
I WISH: i let things be
I MISS: when certain people were apart of my life
I FEAR: disappointment
I HEAR: music
I SEARCH: for storybook romance
I WONDER: if i'm going to end up alone
I REGRET: wasting so much time. i ( Read more... )

3 months. so unexpected ( Read more... )

i'm in a state of confusion ( Read more... )

i think there becomes this point in life, where you've got to stop chasing these fantasies and ideals you've create, and realize what you've got. and realize its good for you right now, and you're happy you've stumbled across it. and for the most part try to hold on ( Read more... )

theres this constant question that has been raised over and over in my head in the past few weeks; what is better: comfortability or persuing that desire for something more ( Read more... )

some of these aren't far from the truth, or have the people have potential of being this. and then there are those totally random, but very amusing ones.

i feel like theres no one there for me anymore. the only person i feel i can rely on is rachael; and thats not all the time. as well as i will never allow myself to just depend on one person- as i have learned that can never ever work out. i have friends, they just have their closer friends, boyfriends, or obligations all the time. i have erica ( Read more... )

so heres what i know. this idea of a perfect ending to chapters of our lives and lives in general is complete crap. we sit and idealize this concept of an end, but nothing really ever does end. its this continous cycle. people sit and debate which piece of literature has the best ending ever; well personally, i think the best is one thats ( Read more... )