i haven't written in this in for almost 7 months
I AM:
someone who just wants to be happy
I WANT: to get out of my depression
I HAVE: a problem with trusting those close to me
I WISH: i let things be
I MISS: when certain people were apart of my life
I FEAR: disappointment
I HEAR: music
I SEARCH: for storybook romance
I WONDER: if i'm going to end up alone
I REGRET: wasting so much time. i procrastinate too much.
I LOVE: my close friends and family, as well as stability
I DANCE: all the time, but no one realizes it
I SING: along to most songs; not well though
I CRY: everyday, all the time. in the past 2 months i'm not sure if theres been a tear-free day
I WRITE: in this composition book i entitled "what's in my crazed head". i started it for mr.shaheen's poetry class; he told me i wrote to think things out, but that i needed to live the"writerly life" more.
I CONFUSE: most people that surround me
I NEED: someone who just cares. someone who knows how to be there.
I SHOULD: finish all my college essays.
x. Father thinks I: am nearly flawless. i swear to god he used to think i'd be president. he wants me to go to u of m or smith, both are "booth family traditions".
x. Mother thinks I: spoiled and selfish. she cares a lot though.
x. three things you are often complimented for: looks, style, and outgoingness.
Yes or no...
x. You keep a diary: yes, its 396 pages, and i intend to fill them all someday.
x. You like to cook: yeah, i just don't have the time.
x. You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: i think. i tell people all too much. i wish i kept more to myself.
x. You set your watch a few minutes ahead: i should, i'm always late.
x. You bite your fingernails: no, i have very long fingernails.
x. You believe in love: god yes, but i'm not sure who will fall in love with me.
Who is...?
Your close friends: are right now rachael, jessalyn, jimmy, jon, and alex currin.
The Person that Knows the Most about you: probably a combination of the aforementioned. maybe alex juwong or sasha used to. its not my psychologist.
The last image/thought you go to sleep with: maybe this feeling will last til tomorrow. maybe things will still be good in morning. maybe he'll still feel the same way.
2. Do You...?
Take a shower everyday: every other, unless its during cross country season, in which i do everyday.
Have a(any) crush(es): i think i always have a few. jimmy and i figured it out the other day that since age 3 i have never gone without one.
Think you know you've been in love: first love, yes. i'm trying to drop that storybook romance.
Want to get married: yes, but again i'm not sure who would marry me.
Have any tattoos/where: no. sadly enough i will not have body art anytime soon.
Piercings/where?: ears?
Get motion sickness: i think i once did as a child driving up a mountain. i didnt throw up though.
Think you're a health freak: i am the person who will eat ice cream more than once a day, and prided myself sophomore year on eating a drumstick or a sprinkled doughnut everyday.
Get along with your parents: hmm.. depends on the hour.
Like thunderstorms: yeah i do. it used to remind me of the sound of bowling.
WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK OF
Ryan: the oc.
Tiffany: hsu, asian girl in flex, and jimmy has her last name on his license plate.
Josh: jackson, you know dawson's creek? he was on some made-for-tv movie tonight.
James : this kid sydney's friends with, and visited at u of m yesterday.
Brianna : this girl from groves i dont really know.
Billy : holiday
Teri: hatcher, i was just watching desperate housewives.
Nick: this freshman boy on cross country, who i call "little kid" and he responds.
Patrick : weiner
Kim : possible. christy carlson romano played her, and she played belle on broadway.
( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )
CRIED? yes. i find myself crying all the time.
HELPED SOMEONE? yeah, i did dishes.
BOUGHT SOMETHING? an arizona green tea last night.
GOTTEN SICK? everyone thought i was going to, but i didnt.
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no.
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? no.
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? no. a real letter of mine got spread around school this week. the girls who did it wanted to make photocopies of it.
TALKED TO AN EX? yes, maybe for the last time, at least for a while
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?no, but i was going to write in that composition book.
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON? yes
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? yes
MISSED SOMEONE? yes, missed them a lot.
HUGGED SOMEONE? yeah
KISSED SOMEONE? yes
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? my mom and i always fight.
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND?if you can call them a friend.
I WANT: to get out of my depression
I HAVE: a problem with trusting those close to me
I WISH: i let things be
I MISS: when certain people were apart of my life
I FEAR: disappointment
I HEAR: music
I SEARCH: for storybook romance
I WONDER: if i'm going to end up alone
I REGRET: wasting so much time. i procrastinate too much.
I LOVE: my close friends and family, as well as stability
I DANCE: all the time, but no one realizes it
I SING: along to most songs; not well though
I CRY: everyday, all the time. in the past 2 months i'm not sure if theres been a tear-free day
I WRITE: in this composition book i entitled "what's in my crazed head". i started it for mr.shaheen's poetry class; he told me i wrote to think things out, but that i needed to live the"writerly life" more.
I CONFUSE: most people that surround me
I NEED: someone who just cares. someone who knows how to be there.
I SHOULD: finish all my college essays.
x. Father thinks I: am nearly flawless. i swear to god he used to think i'd be president. he wants me to go to u of m or smith, both are "booth family traditions".
x. Mother thinks I: spoiled and selfish. she cares a lot though.
x. three things you are often complimented for: looks, style, and outgoingness.
Yes or no...
x. You keep a diary: yes, its 396 pages, and i intend to fill them all someday.
x. You like to cook: yeah, i just don't have the time.
x. You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: i think. i tell people all too much. i wish i kept more to myself.
x. You set your watch a few minutes ahead: i should, i'm always late.
x. You bite your fingernails: no, i have very long fingernails.
x. You believe in love: god yes, but i'm not sure who will fall in love with me.
Who is...?
Your close friends: are right now rachael, jessalyn, jimmy, jon, and alex currin.
The Person that Knows the Most about you: probably a combination of the aforementioned. maybe alex juwong or sasha used to. its not my psychologist.
The last image/thought you go to sleep with: maybe this feeling will last til tomorrow. maybe things will still be good in morning. maybe he'll still feel the same way.
2. Do You...?
Take a shower everyday: every other, unless its during cross country season, in which i do everyday.
Have a(any) crush(es): i think i always have a few. jimmy and i figured it out the other day that since age 3 i have never gone without one.
Think you know you've been in love: first love, yes. i'm trying to drop that storybook romance.
Want to get married: yes, but again i'm not sure who would marry me.
Have any tattoos/where: no. sadly enough i will not have body art anytime soon.
Piercings/where?: ears?
Get motion sickness: i think i once did as a child driving up a mountain. i didnt throw up though.
Think you're a health freak: i am the person who will eat ice cream more than once a day, and prided myself sophomore year on eating a drumstick or a sprinkled doughnut everyday.
Get along with your parents: hmm.. depends on the hour.
Like thunderstorms: yeah i do. it used to remind me of the sound of bowling.
WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK OF
Ryan: the oc.
Tiffany: hsu, asian girl in flex, and jimmy has her last name on his license plate.
Josh: jackson, you know dawson's creek? he was on some made-for-tv movie tonight.
James : this kid sydney's friends with, and visited at u of m yesterday.
Brianna : this girl from groves i dont really know.
Billy : holiday
Teri: hatcher, i was just watching desperate housewives.
Nick: this freshman boy on cross country, who i call "little kid" and he responds.
Patrick : weiner
Kim : possible. christy carlson romano played her, and she played belle on broadway.
( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )
CRIED? yes. i find myself crying all the time.
HELPED SOMEONE? yeah, i did dishes.
BOUGHT SOMETHING? an arizona green tea last night.
GOTTEN SICK? everyone thought i was going to, but i didnt.
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no.
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? no.
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? no. a real letter of mine got spread around school this week. the girls who did it wanted to make photocopies of it.
TALKED TO AN EX? yes, maybe for the last time, at least for a while
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?no, but i was going to write in that composition book.
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON? yes
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? yes
MISSED SOMEONE? yes, missed them a lot.
HUGGED SOMEONE? yeah
KISSED SOMEONE? yes
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? my mom and i always fight.
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND?if you can call them a friend.