I wanted to post this in a separate entry because it's a totally separate issue. My mom told me at dinner two nights ago that she has a spot on her lung and that she is going to Richmond on the 29th to get a biopsy. She is also quitting smoking via Kaiser's program for it. Too little, too late right? It's not like I didn't expect this, because I ( Read more... )

The fair was great, Ross was not. Christine, Jacky and I get there and walk around for a little bit, and then eventually find Danny and Birdman and then later, Ross and Jim. He didn't look happy to see me and ended up leaving without saying goodbye. Thanks alcohol, you're my best friend. So, I leave with Birdman and take his keys with the intention ( Read more... )

Guess not. Funny thing is, you asked me not to do this, but tough shit, I don't need to be doing you favors account of me NOT OWING YOU ANYTHING. Anyways, Anthony decided to pop back into my life for a second. Long story short, he lied to his current girlfriend, Sarah, about just about everything, especially everything about me and our "whatever" ( Read more... )

Things are starting to fall into place. This feeling is nice, even though I have my bouts with being upset about the dumbest thing, but that could also be contributed to my random use of birth control pills. You see, I don't take them everyday, because I'm terrible at remembering those types of things. Whatever, I'll get back on track soon. Not ( Read more... )

I guess I should actually update this once in awhile. I've been really busy lately, doing some random things before the wedding, and prom, spending far too much money on things I don't necessarily need. I got my report card today, a 3.6! I reached that goal, I just need to continue on with it. Other than that, nothing has really been going on. My ( Read more... )

I just wrote a good portion of what I'd like to say to you, but I decided I don't want to say it.

I have nothing to say anymore, about anything, to anyone in particular. I'm just waiting for the next chapter to start.

Not fun.( Read more... )

I'm not devastated about this. Anthony and I are completely through, and it wasn't left open to question, nor do I have anything left to ask. I understand why this happened, and I think this whole time I knew it was going to, but we were just trying to get in a little more time before we had to say our goodbyes. I'll never regret this, and I might ( Read more... )

I know it's a little late after New Years and all, but better late than never has become my new theme song. I've made this resolution to never be second best, never be number 2, never be the other girl. I've decided this because of a few reasons. One, is clearly about a guy I don't have. Two, is clearly about the friendships I do "have". And three ( Read more... )

I always feel like I have to live up to someones expectations, be who somebody else wants me to be, please somebody or whatever else. I lost sight of my true self a long time ago and I dont know how to find me anymore. I feel like an imposter, like I'm pretending to live this life but not actuallly living or experiencing anything. I dont know who ( Read more... )