More bad news.
I wanted to post this in a separate entry because it's a totally separate issue. My mom told me at dinner two nights ago that she has a spot on her lung and that she is going to Richmond on the 29th to get a biopsy. She is also quitting smoking via Kaiser's program for it. Too little, too late right? It's not like I didn't expect this, because I did. She smokes almost 2 packs a day, and chain smokes it at that. She couldn't get away with not having a bad lung problem. I don't know what I'm going to do if she does. I don't know how I'm going to handle it, or if I'm going to handle it, but I can tell you this for sure, life will be so different. This is the first time I've really gotten upset over it, but I don't want to lose my mom. I love her, so very much, and out of everyone in the entire world, I love her the most and I don't think I can bear losing her at this point in the game. Not before my wedding, before I can show her all my accomplishments, not before I can have kids. Life isn't fair but it's not like I didn't expect it. I don't see a happy ending...