Made a resolution.

[jessiegoesbang]

I know it's a little late after New Years and all, but better late than never has become my new theme song. I've made this resolution to never be second best, never be number 2, never be the other girl. I've decided this because of a few reasons. One, is clearly about a guy I don't have. Two, is clearly about the friendships I do "have". And three, it's about myself. I have finally come to terms with deserving something good, well not something good, in particular, but something better than this. Better than how I'm being treated, better than I'm getting. The friends I can deal with, they come and go. As do guys, but this is different. Or it should have been. Things changed, he picked her, but won't completely let go of me. I know he loves me, he has told her he loves me, and it continues. I guess I can either wait it out and see where it goes, or move on like I should have before because of knowing I deserve better than this. Thank you for the life lesson, you have made me such a better person by helping me learn from some of my biggest mistakes. It's not going to change rightnowthissecond, but it'll change over time, and I think we've both realized that. I hope we can find our Switzerland.

I haven't drank in over a month. I feel very proud of myself, and I plan on continuing this for the sake of my pride and my liver.