a-what would YOU have done if YOU were in my situation?
b-go forward with unbridled optimism.

a-...but when optimism fails you, tis time for REALISM, babbbbbby.

is the kill worth the killing?

i mean...

if you have a heavy tool (takes hardly any space) that you'll never find real use for and is bent, should you exert yourself and throw it out? or can ya just wait for the next door neighbor to borrow but be too lazy to return?

i hate codependency- when people need advice for every little thing they do and need for you to hold their hand at all times or when people can't grab a meal without anyone or phone or batteries without anyone else. i also hate how this city's massive pollution is giving me chronic headaches. i almost never have headaches in the states (i've had ( Read more... )

if you feel i'm ignoring you currently or start to get that itching feeling soon, let me explain... I'm finding that leaving technology for a little bit of time is really alright because at the end of the day, week, month, whathaveyou, the world (incl. you, honestly) won't miss me all that much. i'm struggling in my efforts but am slowly ( Read more... )

My first mass letter from China ( Read more... )

fuck, i'm going to china in 6 days. i'm really not ready... for a "life changing experience", to eat dog, to live with a family that doesn't speak English, for the Chinese work hard/play naught ethic, for the unsanitariness, for the background noise, for the constant pollution/ urine smells, to see homeless people deficating in the streets (all but ( Read more... )

this only affects me but i've got to give you the day's ultimate all vegan, non-KOBE beef ( Read more... )

8 planes in 18 days. i hate stale airplane air because my face gets dehydrated but it's a small price to pay for seeing so much of amuuurica and moving to CHINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNA ( Read more... )

i either have a facade of substance or a facade of material and stupidity. either way, i agree that i am privilaged and know i'm self centered i should quit writing this thing and realize that no one really cares about the air and backwash i bring to the table. style without substance or substance without a marketable enclosure are both ( Read more... )

i got a hearing test yesterday and ordered two awesome digital, 32 channel hearing aids. they will be a bit bigger than my current ones but will come equipped with two microphones and an exra button, increasing the volume even more. I never realized how bad my sense of sound was but for 70%, the chunk covering the most important frequencies, my ( Read more... )