In accordance with my latest resolve to be more honest with myself and my diary, I would like it hereby known by all that I hate it when I wake up on the other side of the den. How exactly does one distract oneself from a biological imperative? o.0 In other news...it took my printer 48 hours of printing to do it, but I've finally printed the vast ( Read more... )

My brother is minutes away from arriving home from a stint along the Gulf Coast working for A Government Agency That Is Not FEMA (inc.), minutes away from being with his wife who is waiting anxiously for him at the airport. She is days (perhaps minutes o.0 ) away from having their first daughter who is slated to have a mostly unpronounceable ( Read more... )

I've been on the verge of tears the entire day, and for no apparent reason. The only thing I can think of is that I didn't sleep at all last night, but I felt energized this morning nonetheless, and I got a late nap yesterday and again today. But I just sort of crashed. Now I'm sad and lonely and very, very depressed, and again, for no discernable ( Read more... )

Excerpt from Jari's analog diary, 7/24/2005:

The yearning is much more intense today. I can feel it through every fire of my being, like some sort of fire in my veins, burning to the point where it physically hurts. Like I want to cry out and sing all at once, and I know that doing so would help, but it would also make it uch more intense, if such ( Read more... )

After much heart-searching and a thoughtful look at my past and my emotions, I've come to the conclusion that something I never was all that sure about is indeed the case. When I first found the collection of urges within me, it/they didn't surprise me. The fact that they didn't made me wonder if I wasn't only wishing they were there, and that they ( Read more... )

I updates Study Abroad today, after a very long time. It's just a mouse-drawn, but better than nothing, I suppose. :-3 *hugs everyone*
In other news, I'm feeling really Raj-ish today... Luckily, Raj is also my creative force...maybe I'll get something done today! *hope* *hope*

I've felt really...weird the last two days. Not weird. Kind of blah and depressed and energized and in heat and achy and free-spirited and withdrawn and motivated and exhausted all at once. Like a brain fever, almost, without the secondary symptoms. I haven't been sleeping enough the last week or so, and last night, my dreams were fairly vivid and ( Read more... )

It has been warm the last couple nights. Warm enough that I have reverted to summer dress for bed. I'd thought a couple weeks ago that I had shed my clothes for good, but last week was surprisingly cold. As cold as a normal year--it got warm early this year for some reason. But in any case, it has been very warm this week. Hot, in fact, since most ( Read more... )

*sighs* I feel...unsettled today. I've been trying to think of a word for how I feel ever since I left work, and that's the closest I've been able to come so far. I just want to hugs someone close and wait for the day to pass by. And I'm not sure why, either. It's not a bad day. In fact, it could be argued that it's a wonderful day. It's 75 and not ( Read more... )

Had dream upon dream tonight, in all of which I was female, progressively more so, in fact. I only remember bits and peices of one or two, but in one I was a waitress (bartendress?) at a gay bar, and in another (later) I was hosting a LAN party, and having to explain why Jari had never told anyone about his sister (me) before. :-3 The timing's all ( Read more... )