Hyperthalmia
I've felt really...weird the last two days. Not weird. Kind of blah and depressed and energized and in heat and achy and free-spirited and withdrawn and motivated and exhausted all at once. Like a brain fever, almost, without the secondary symptoms. I haven't been sleeping enough the last week or so, and last night, my dreams were fairly vivid and disturbingly coherent and warm and fuzzy (even the nightmares), and they are utterly gone from my memory the instant I leave them. These are kind of the symptoms of a sleep-deprived Jari, except that I've spent a long time training myself to remember certain aspects of my dreams, and consider myself very good at it. These dreams, however, don't fade away like normal dreams. They delete themselves utterly the instant before I wake up. And when I'm sleep deprived, I'm at least semi-conscious--sometimes fully conscious--in my dreams. Not so these. And somehow my perception of realty and self is warped a little bit; it kind of feels like what I imagine one of Fiona's auras would be like. Yellow soothes me. That's just plain weird.
Anyhow, I've concluded that this is prolly just lack of sleep combined with heat sickness. Repeated doses of temperatures hock at work isn't helping either. Nothing kills brain cells faster than going out onto the black asphalt after spending three hours in the freezer on an empty stomach. :-P Why can't they make asphalt white?
Anyhow, I'm off to bed. goodnight. If you see me up after 10pm, yell at me until I go to bed.
Anyhow, I've concluded that this is prolly just lack of sleep combined with heat sickness. Repeated doses of temperatures hock at work isn't helping either. Nothing kills brain cells faster than going out onto the black asphalt after spending three hours in the freezer on an empty stomach. :-P Why can't they make asphalt white?
Anyhow, I'm off to bed. goodnight. If you see me up after 10pm, yell at me until I go to bed.