it seems fitting that I'm ending this year by finishing a wonderful book and video-chatting with two of the first friends I made this year in London.

after 2oo7 spit me out, 2oo8 turned out to be pretty damn wonderful.  I had my fingers crossed at this time last year, not just wishing for but needing luck, and I got it.  the part of me that believes ( Read more... )

strange that, with all the tumult of this week, I've enough energy left to have thoughts sparking up and burning left and right in my mind. there are memories and worries, questions and convictions, arrows of color and shadow that point and swirl around each other ( Read more... )

hah...god, I don't believe in myself at all. perhaps I made this up inside my head.

sometimes I look around and chuckle because life just seems like a practical joke we're playing on ourselves.

"at night the sun goes down, and the stars come out; and then in the morning the sun comes up again. it's so exciting"

how alive am I willing to be?

a family...yeah.

a family...some ancient cultures believed that before a baby was concieved, its spirit, floating about in the great matter of the world, chose the family into which it would be born based on the lessons it needed to learn. I don't know that I chose my blood family. I don't even know if I chose this family of sorts, or whether some ( Read more... )

this morning I had the strangest sensation. I was driving through my neighborhood, the fog shrouding everything, and it occured to me that the whole world was static. not a single light was flickering in a window, not a single branch on a single tree was swaying in the wind, not a pebble was dislodged under my tires. no squirrel was flitting across ( Read more... )

today has been a day of thought - thought in a form that is not hurried or fretting, in a form that trickles like a bit of spray from a cool stream, from the center of your forehead, down, following the curve of your eye, pausing for a moment at the corner, then running down and tucking itself behind your ears, past your temple, into tendrils and ( Read more... )