I've had difficulty writing lately, despite my interest in coming back to LJ. When did I become so closed up? Everything I write seems to be private or heavily filtered in my sex or religion filters. I feel like I have a secret that I'm trying to suppress and locked up in my heart ( Read more... )

I was thinking about how I was going to turn 24 in July. I usually get anxious when I think about adding another year of experience to my life. Its not like I'm afraid of adding years all the time. I look forward to being 30. My sex drive will increase; I hope to be at a point in my life where I'm settled with an amazing significant other, house, ( Read more... )

Whats in store for my love life? 10 of Swords - Represents a lifetime accumulation of problems and attitude. Suggests you consciously confront problems ( Read more... )

I feel stupid admitting it - but TV is making me feel sad and lonely. Me and Beth as usual on Thursdays catch up on the DVR recorded and everything we turn on is about relationships and resolution and happy endings and love. It makes me feel really sad. I feel I'm at a point in my life that I want nothing more then to be loved by someone and only ( Read more... )

What is up with me? What is up with me? Hmmm.. I'm single. Didn't feel like bothering to tell anybody because a) I'm tired of advice. I'm a relationship fuck up and I'd rather not have others rub it in my face or try to help me. b) I have to deal with stupid people mistaking the reasons. Someone actually had the nerve to tell me he saw that coming ( Read more... )

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The first time I hung out at Jon's he handed me a newspaper article that was over a year old to read. Every time I'm at his place I read a paragraph or two, before being distracted. I finally finished it today and its a good read. I really appreciate that he passed it on to me, even if it took me a month. Actually I appreciate Jon a lot because he ( Read more... )

Time passes so quickly now a days. Paydays are two weeks apart, but I usually just don't think about money because the two weeks pass in a blink of an eye. I am too busy and never get things done that I intend to. Animazement is a month and half away and I haven't worked on the Imphy Cosplay in forever. I dunno if I'll even have two costumes this ( Read more... )

My mom has been fixating on the 5 love language stuff again. She asked my brother what was his and he said "Compliments" to which she freaked to because she never compliments him. She asked me and I said I must be greedy because I wanted more then one.

The five are: Quality Time, Gifts, Service, Compliments and Physical TouchI'd say I want ( Read more... )

I know I have been posting pretty depressing things lately. I hate when I'm depressed. Its not a very healthy thing for me. In the past week I've dropped two pounds from the sheer amount of energy I burn from cold sweats, sobbing and upset stomachs preventing me from eating. Tonight me and Joe talked. He is always so calm and sure and tender to me ( Read more... )