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The wheels are turning and turning and turning. Something amazing and scary and freeing and determining just happen. Something I'd been waiting for with dread and hope. I like watching my own emotions and thought process. Its amazing how simple things change so much for one internally and their perception of the rest of the world around them ( Read more... )

I've been feeling slightly better all in all. Everything reminds me of Jon, which is frustrating, but the hives are going down and I've been sleeping without sleeping pills. I just have to avoid thinking about him to avoid missing him. This would be easier if I had something negative about him to dwell on, but I only have nice things to say ( Read more... )

Sometimes I have a hard time making decisions and will flip a coin to see what I want. Its not that I leave the call to chance, its more of a test. If the coin lands heads and I'm happy with the decision, thats what I wanted. If it lands heads and I'm unhappy - I obviously wanted the other option all along ( Read more... )

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Me and my mom were driving innocently enough in the car when she asks, "Why'd you put that ugly blanket up over the basement doors." I was still trying to come up with a reason wen she says out loud what I'm thinking, "What? You need privacy or something?" She then turns brick red and changes the subject. Its good to know "privacy" is allowed ( Read more... )

Hey guys, Haven't been around the internet because my computer seems to have broken in the move. I'll get caught back up on my friends page once its up and running .. but till then an update from the boyfriend's computer ( Read more... )

I kinda of feel like butt - but at least I'm not hung over ( Read more... )

Yesterday was beautiful. I felt like a little plant and all day long I just wanted to stand in a sun patch face up. I got to garden at work and really enjoyed myself making these arrangements.

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Last night Jon took me to games night and it was fun. I was kind of nervous at first because it was late at night, I felt dirty (from exercising earlier), and I didn't know how much I'd enjoy myself - but after a whiskey sour and observing the place .. I really felt happy I'd come out and laughed most of the night ( Read more... )