imthedeafone: did you listen to what sarah said

imthedeafone: those are my two favorites on the cd, and there's one more, summer skin

imthedeafone: i don't know what i'm doing, i haev so much crap to do and i'm just sitting here

imthedeafone: i'm not even using my computer except to talk to you

imthedeafone: i just turned on the tv because the silence ( Read more... )

just took a multivitamin with a glass of wine. i'm such a great nutrition major.

"I have moments when I want to eat junk food. When I want to hop into my car and go to Taco Bell. When I want to say, "Fuck being thin. I give up." When I want to say, "I won't gain if I eat this tiny little cookie." But ana and mia keep me in line ( Read more... )

i only post most entries as "friends only" because most of my entries are really personal and embarrassing, but if you are willing to surpass the embarrassing entries, feel free to friend : )

"i'm trying to be perfect, and the smallest failure -- say i don't wash a dish -- becomes cause for rage at myself for being such a fucking waste of space. i work too much, sleep too little, shop compulsively, and i'm dizzy with grief. i swing from elation at my new life to despair at what i've lost and hatred of who i was. so i race away from all ( Read more... )

"You can't have a life and an eating disorder at the same time. You can play the game and fool everybody for a really long time, but it's like the difference between life in a grainy black-and-white film and in technicolor. Life is so muted when you have an eating disorder -- and that's the point. If you don't like life, you can turn it down and ( Read more... )

i'm going insane. i'm chugging this

man. wtf. hahahhahaha. like i'm ralready wasted and i'm like wtf. is gong on???

whwere is laura smiht> my mom asked menot to get "

Words are but symbols for the relations of things to one another and to us; nowhere do they touch upon absolute truth

wow five days of sobriety really made this suckers work better. or like maybe it's because my liver healed or something ( Read more... )