I'd go and get on the scale, just to see if I've lost any weight--it feels like I have; for example, some clothes fit better (like those black pants I like, they are too big now)--but I don't want to get on there, and see the numbers keep climbing past "The Acceptable Weight ( Read more... )

i don't want to wake up in the morning.

if i wasn't so excited (prepared [see also: 7 pound capon in fridge]) for this dinner party tonight, i'd call everyone who said that they were still going to come and tell them to forget about it ( Read more... )

Dear Body,

STOP GAINING WEIGHT.

I made a mistake. Not the mistake I didn't want to make, but the mistake I didn't even see coming even though deep down, I saw it coming and didn't want to try to stop it. I did not want to stop it because I knew in the long-run it would make me happy, and the long-run isn't here yet and I am kicking myself in the ass for allowing it to happen so ( Read more... )

things have been weird.

i'm gonna take another shower and maybe go to pete and emma's.

apparently, brandon and i have been making out in the hallways at school. yeah, mount carmel, y'all are really awesome.

i don't have *anything* to do today. i was thinking about sitting around eating, but after feeling so fat today i don't think i want to.

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Fucking yay.

Two posts in one; the essential and the nonessential ( Read more... )