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CR: Day 5
Finally, last day, well we have one outpatient day this sat, but this is our last day of incarceration, haha. If jail was this easy, criminals would care even less than they already do about going in ( Read more... ) -
CR: Day 4
so, after finally hitting the sack after my last blood draw @ 0500, I crawled into my bed, got 4 hours of sleep before somebody decided to leave the door open, rude mofos, and the noise started, then around 10 the video games started, so i gave up on sleep, and made my way out to the common area, and made my little sofa chair area again. quick ( Read more... ) -
CR: Day 3b
Our group of 7 has been dwindled down to 3, and the other 4 were not given a 2nd chance like the group before us was. Sad, I'd made a friend with Jason and I'd hoped he get into the study and not have wasted a trip from NC, but his PFT and vitals were all over the place. So the 3 of us remaining have been stuck, sucked, jabbed, etc. We've gone ( Read more... ) -
ain't drowned yet
Here I am, driving a large budget truck from long island into brooklyn. Making a 2 day haul for my uncle/ former not employer. Not sure where the greater percentage lies between whether he needs me for this or if he's throwing me a bone. Either way I hope it means were ok again. Although I know he's still hurt but I'm hoping he understands I had to ( Read more... ) -
Freedom comes @ a price
So, not long after that last post, the house of cards started to crumble. my prayers were indirectly answered. I've been miserable, caught in a field I hated. Always dreaming an wising for an alternate path that I could have walked. Although my Uncle was doing what he thought best for me and trying to give me what he thought to be a golden ticket.. ( Read more... ) -
on the road again
Here I go again. A new winter is upon me, but I'm not happy...at all..in fact, I'm on the verge of having a break down. I hate 1/2 of my life. Love my friends, but that's it. I hate my job, I hate being broke, and I hate being alone. I'm afraid that if I don't quit soon I'll end up hating my Uncle. And I don't want that. I just don't know how much ( Read more... ) -
inner struggle
I've always known that inside me there has been an ongoing, epic battle taking place. A battle not of good versus evil, but of maturity versus immaturity, adolescence versus adulthood, responsibility versus irresponsibility, of taking things seriously versus just having fun, regardless of the consequences. It's kept me young, energetic, mildly ( Read more... ) -
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I don't want to live to be 30. I really can not begin to tell you how much I don't want to be 30. It's the worst birthday. It is the end of one's total childhood years, the end of fun, the end of the merry-go_round ride. For those of who've spent the last 30 years avoiding adulthood and all the signs of true n total maturity, it's about as bad as ( Read more... ) -
sunday = recoup
Yesterday, Sat, wwasIrish Fest in Long Beach...I ended up going out for a bit friday night, so needless to say, sat morn I was not getting up. So I dragged my lazy ass to the train finally and got into Long beach b4 4pm. bounced around, made some new friends. All the usual suspects were of course there with me. Then around 930-10 it was time to ( Read more... ) -
End of summer
feeling alittle lost these last few days. Haven't had sex in awhile, haven't had any real hook ups(ie, non sober or worth remembering) this summer. had a lot of fun. growing my own company, just waiting for the right time to leave Philips medical to work my own company full time..bought a new truck, which is eating into my ca$h flow, can't wait to ( Read more... )