End of summer
feeling alittle lost these last few days. Haven't had sex in awhile, haven't had any real hook ups(ie, non sober or worth remembering) this summer. had a lot of fun. growing my own company, just waiting for the right time to leave Philips medical to work my own company full time..bought a new truck, which is eating into my ca$h flow, can't wait to find somewhere else to live.
Wondering why I'm still single, then I remember the last time I ventured out on to that tiny limb of the love tree, think about her every now and then. Would I go thru that again, is it worth it, was it worth it..I just don't know. feeling aimless as of late...
thought about re-enlisting..what if I could move all my stuff into a storage unit and just disappear, re-enlist, not tell anyone. And see where it takes me...give up everything, start anew...if I survive. but I can't abandon my friends and family, they need me, as much as I need them.
What have I done with my life...I'm not anywhere I've ever imagined myself, it's too late to go downa ny other path..this is where I'm stuck and I hate to accept it. just rambling..pay no attention, my thoughts are always somewhat unorganized, without any real direction or point...just trying to jot them down, to look at later on, pieces of apuzzle...or pieces of several puzles...not enough to determine if they're from teh same puzzle, or even what any of thsoe puzzles should look like....
Wondering why I'm still single, then I remember the last time I ventured out on to that tiny limb of the love tree, think about her every now and then. Would I go thru that again, is it worth it, was it worth it..I just don't know. feeling aimless as of late...
thought about re-enlisting..what if I could move all my stuff into a storage unit and just disappear, re-enlist, not tell anyone. And see where it takes me...give up everything, start anew...if I survive. but I can't abandon my friends and family, they need me, as much as I need them.
What have I done with my life...I'm not anywhere I've ever imagined myself, it's too late to go downa ny other path..this is where I'm stuck and I hate to accept it. just rambling..pay no attention, my thoughts are always somewhat unorganized, without any real direction or point...just trying to jot them down, to look at later on, pieces of apuzzle...or pieces of several puzles...not enough to determine if they're from teh same puzzle, or even what any of thsoe puzzles should look like....