my school doesnt have a butchering class!!! (the biggest piece we get to cut up is a quarter, which is an 1/8 of a cow.) i have decided to take it upon myself to have a fundraiser so we can get a bansaw for cuttin up them there cows. if they have ice sculpting, they should have butchering. i also joined the epicurious club. i was confused at first ( Read more... )

i finally get to start culinary school today. god bob FM sucks. they'll play a couple of good songs then no doubt or pink or some bubblegum bullshit. oh well, all radio sucks anyway. i left my new samhain cd at home so i cant listen to my new favorite most depressing song ever. its not even lyrically sad, danzig's voice just makes me sad i guess. i ( Read more... )

judd and i spent our weekend vomiting and cursing milano's pizza. DONT EAT THERE OR ORDER FOOD FROM THEM!!! damned commies. ha ha ha ( Read more... )

for some reason i feel like posting an e-mail i sent to my best and only friend, rachel ( Read more... )

where to begin... shit. well, i have no money and i am actually in debt. about $600 worth. i havent been able to buy food in two weeks. i hate money so much. how am i supposed to survive when i work and go to school everyday, but still never have enough? i am so tired. i am so bored of worrying myself sick everyday. my distraction box still sucks. ( Read more... )

so judd thinks i am pathetic for having a live journal. its just a fucking journal! so what if other people can read it, sometimes what they say back is interesting. and if i could actually get my community, thefuckingcunts, up and fucking running, it might be an ok way to pass my time. its not like i have anything better to do. except rot away.

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ive got mono again. this is the third damned time now. i always get it when im depressed and/or anxious. which is always. everytime i think i am calm or relaxed i think, "hey im actually relaxed!!!" then my heart runs cold and my stomach turns black and i feel like my inards are moving forward, but i am only sitting still... then i get desperately ( Read more... )

i fart alot when i wake up. hahahaha. well, i have my math test on monday now. i guess i DO need to study. i took part of the sample test online this morning and got half my answers wrong. which is disappointing and embarassing. i am usually really good at math. i guess i just need to review. my mom left today to go to savannah, TN for her ( Read more... )

life is so fucking boring. i had to go to lowes to get shit to fix my toilet. and i still have a shitload of other bullshit to deal with. being worried makes me sick. i cant relax so i cant sleep well. good thing i got this god damned tempur pedic. i hate rich people. and being worried.