txca
i finally get to start culinary school today. god bob FM sucks. they'll play a couple of good songs then no doubt or pink or some bubblegum bullshit. oh well, all radio sucks anyway. i left my new samhain cd at home so i cant listen to my new favorite most depressing song ever. its not even lyrically sad, danzig's voice just makes me sad i guess. i cant listen to the misfits anymore without gut wrenching sadness taking over me. i guess it has something to do with my wasted youth. i wish i had stayed 15 or 16 forever, just getting fucked up and wandering around that shithole called knoxville. now im a fucking adult, i have become what i hate. going to work and paying my bills and wanting to get hit by a car just for laughs. i miss not having to be responsible for anything but my own ass. i think i miss rachel most of all. she was my most complimentary opposite, if that makes sense. but of course, if i like something (or someone) i make them out to be better than they are. i wonder if she would be as fun and carefree now that her mom is dead and she works with retarded old fuckers that try to kill her. probably not. oh well, i guess its true.... high school IS the best years of your life. now i am just another boring adult with a boring life. i want to be homeless and free. too bad i love toilet paper and food so much. ha ha ha... blah blah blah....