Today I've been puttering around the house, clearing places for green tomatoes to live for the next month as they ripen. I have roughly 10 dairy crates filled about 3/4 full each from roughly 100' of row or just under. I'll be able to pick out what ripens and make it into sauce or dehydrate it as necessary.

The tomato seeds I've been saving have all ( Read more... )

While I hear rumours that some folks go out of their way to be terrible to other people, sometimes for a long time, I don't meet many folks like that. Even my dad -- who objectively spent nearly seventeen years after the divorce making mom's life hell as a nearly full-time job, including writing multiple self-published books about her and getting ( Read more... )

It's not always power. Some things never felt like power. I read something and it clicks, though: secrets are power.

How obvious does it sound laid out on the page like that? But I never mapped political secrets and treasure chests onto emotions before.

You keep your secrets and I am pleasant to you. I keep mine and you are pleasant to me. The ( Read more... )

Whatever is going on with my head has been a pretty substantial problem.

Best guess is that some stuff with partners + covid instability + residential school abuse being everywhere has been putting me in a constant people-aren't-safe/no-one-has-my-back/the-world-is-never-kind trigger state. I've been crying. A lot. I pass two memorials to the ( Read more... )

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The point of a counselor is for someone to ask me questions that are too scary or shaky for me to think of asking myself. Last week it was, "what does it say about you if you don't give people second chances/collaborate/work with them after they've done something wrong ( Read more... )