They say that when hope dies, what is really left? Effectively, you are already dead.This dysphoria is winning, my hope is fading fast. I do not expect anyone to understand because I am probably the ugliest, most non-passable transwoman in the world. Surgery is out of reach and it will most likely stay that way. I am not getting any younger and ( Read more... )

Another day, another minefield of reminders that "you are a male and you will always be a male". I'll slip lunch today as I won't have time to make my own and I sure as hell am not going to buy lunch anyway, as it would involve interacting with other humans, whip will most likely misgender me and cause another meltdown like the one I had yesterday ( Read more... )

It was my birthday on Monday (I changed the date on here for fear of being tracked) and I have been in a state of rather severe depression since that day, which I cannot seem to lift myself out of. Getting older just plain sucks, only it has an extra level of suckiness for me, as another year passing represents another year that I'll never get ( Read more... )