"Just be yourself" is another often coined phrase that I am tired of hearing, when applied to me.It sounds nice and supportive in principle, but it is an extremely invalidating phrase, at least in my case. It would be nice to not care what people think and to not live in fear every day, but that is not reality. I still have to coexist with others ( Read more... )

I'm 99.99999% sure that no one will donate (and honestly I don't expect anyone to), but I created a GoFundMe page ( Read more... )

I accepted long ago that wherever I live on this planet, I am going to encounter lots of people who don't like me, ignorant people and even instances of harassment and discrimination. Some places are better than others, but Miami is not somewhere that I feel safe at all, having lived here for 9 years. In fact, I think Miami is probably the most ( Read more... )

Another day, another minefield of reminders that "you are a male and you will always be a male". I'll slip lunch today as I won't have time to make my own and I sure as hell am not going to buy lunch anyway, as it would involve interacting with other humans, whip will most likely misgender me and cause another meltdown like the one I had yesterday ( Read more... )

I'm actually glad this weekend is over as I have a lot to process, but I am not looking forward to work tomorrow. I don't hate my job as such, but I work at a place where I have no allies and where most people literally can't stand me ( Read more... )

Wow, I managed to remember my username and password for my old Livejournal account from 10+ years ago and this is what I wrote on January 5, 2003, when I was still living in the UK at the time:

"My meeting with the psychologist didn't go too well. She seems to think there are parts of me that are buried and that I could find contentment in life ( Read more... )

I had my second laser treatment today. I went to a different place a month ago, but they totally ripped me off, so I found a lady who works with the transgender community who gave me a much better deal and more importantly, much more effective treatment. She zapped my wretched facial hair for almost 40 minutes, doing my whole face. It's like ( Read more... )

I have a lot going on tomorrow, so I'd like to take a moment to try to write about it before it all goes horribly wrong over the course of the next 24 hours ( Read more... )

It was my birthday on Monday (I changed the date on here for fear of being tracked) and I have been in a state of rather severe depression since that day, which I cannot seem to lift myself out of. Getting older just plain sucks, only it has an extra level of suckiness for me, as another year passing represents another year that I'll never get ( Read more... )

Before I start writing diary type entries, I feel that it's necessary to explain my past, so that anyone reading this can make a little sense of my present. I need to at least attempt to write about the experience I had coming out as transgender three years ago, in the summer of 2011, specifically when my ex wife found out and the 3 years worth of ( Read more... )